 |
| FAQ/Help |
| Calendar |
| Search |
|
#1
Mar 06, 2007, 03:43 AM
|
|||
|
|||
|
I found PC just alittle while back. I am 18 years old. And in 18 years I thought it was normal the way i lived. For some reason i automatically thought everyone either lived this way or had it worse. I am awestruck. Everyone told me i was rebellious and that it was my actions that brought on any actions or verbal "abuse" from my parents. My stepdad would call me the C word when he got mad. When my stepdad adopted me (my real father didnt want me) it all went to hell. They would hold it over my head that they spend thousands of dollars to have him adopt me. And when they were mad at me they would call me by my real fathers last name. They said i was just like him (he is a drunk and abusive and mean and is very lazy) I would ask my mother if anything in the house needed done she would say no and i would get yelled at later for not doing anything and be called lazy. I flinch when people come at me even if they dont mean to hurt me. My stepdad beat me with the remote control one time when he didnt want me to watch the tv. He would rip one arm behind me and put his other hand on my face, throw me on the ground with his knee on my back and shoved my face in the carpet. I feel like its my fault. They would restrict me to certain rooms. Like they wouldnt allow me in the kitchen or in the living room. Or i wouldnt be allowed to take a shower. I feel its my fault. But its not is it?I have felt this way for so long and this wonderful site makes me wonder if it real is my fault. I still have yet to work things out with myself but i will get there one day perhaps. It makes me feel like i might be able to see a rainbow in the distance....hmm I hope this feeling lasts.
__________________
"You look at me, and you dont like what you see. But this is the price of living with you, Mother. " - White Oleander |
|
#2
Mar 06, 2007, 06:37 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Remember that a child can never be to blame. Sending you hugs>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>  (((((((((((( InACorner )))))))))))))
__________________
 Pegasus Got a quick question related to mental health or a treatment? Ask it here General Q&A Forum “Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by it's ability to climb a tree, it will live it's whole life believing that it is stupid.” - Albert Einstein |
|
#3
Mar 06, 2007, 06:40 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
(((((((((((((((( InACorner )))))))))))))))))
__________________
|
|
#4
Mar 06, 2007, 07:30 AM
|
|||
|
|||
|
No, of course it's not your fault. These 'people' should have protected, and cared for, you.
Their actions only serve to show they were quite despicable actually. So, do keep the rainbow in sight! |
|
#5
Mar 06, 2007, 08:19 AM
|
|||
|
|||
|
((((((((((((((inny)))))))))))) how i wish i could hold you and comfort you. you are one of my best friends on here and i love you so much. no you are not to blame. don't ever ever think that you are. you have all your life ahead of you and you will be happy, you are strong and sensible and i wish you were my daughter too. if you feel like crying, cry to your hearts content. it will ease your hurting. keep talking to us too, we're here for you. love you, kerry (jin)xxxxx 
|
|
#6
Mar 06, 2007, 08:26 AM
|
|||
|
|||
|
Inny, Our stories are very similar. I will PM you my story if you want to read it. I'm here any time you need me
|
|
#7
Mar 06, 2007, 10:15 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Inacorner,
No, it's not your fault. We'd rather tell ourselves those things than accept that the only ppl we have, those that are supposed to be EVERYTHING, would hurt us. It's actually easier to blame it on self than to face that. I was actually 23 yrs old before I realized that ppl didn't live with abuse and certainly not like I'd had...after 17 1/2 years of some form of abuse. It was normal for me. Everyone lived that way, didn't they? Those that didn't were just luckier than normal, right? This is a VERY important time in your life. It's the time for you to take the knowledge you've gained and work it for YOU...just for YOU. Would you consider seeing a counselor for a few months to work through this as you're starting what I hope to be a wonderful new life at the amazing age of 18. KD
__________________
|
|
#8
Mar 06, 2007, 01:13 PM
|
|||
|
|||
|
(((((((everyone))))))))))) you are all so kind and supportive Thank you for everything my friends
__________________
"You look at me, and you dont like what you see. But this is the price of living with you, Mother. " - White Oleander |
| Reply |
This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
|
Similar Threads
|
||||
| Thread | Forum | |||
| does anyone else feel this way? I can't feel the presence of God. I'd like to! | Sanctuary for Spiritual Support | |||
| I don't know how I feel | Dissociative Disorders | |||
| How can I feel better and still feel like feces? | Other Mental Health Discussion | |||
| when i feel the need to cut, i feel.... | Self Injury | |||
| I'm 18, but still feel like a kid | Other Mental Health Discussion | |||
My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
Linear Mode
