[mick07]

My brother is in a really rough spot- he's really hurting and I can't stop it. He's my younger brother Growing up I always tried to protect him. It was him and I trying to survive together in all the craziness, Seeing someone else suffer is so much worse than suffering yourself. Brings back all the times from the past when I couldn't protect him. ....

Mick-- I'm sorry your brother is in a rough spot and that you are too.

I so understand and can very much relate to this....

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Seeing someone else suffer is so much worse than suffering yourself

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> I'm so sorry you experienced this and know what it feels like too...


Though I wasn't unscathed, there were younger ones that suffered so much more than I..... and I couldn't protect them.... (it's hard not to hate myself for this at times.... ) Many times I've wished-- "why couldn't it ALL just have been done to me? ...and that I didn't have to see all those frightened and sad eyes that I couldn't help"...

I also understand when similar things happen presently-- one can be back at 6 years old, or 10 or 15. It is very rough.

I hope you and your brother can get some help for your pain, maybe you are already?...

My heart is with you and your brother-

mandy

[DePressMe]

When I was 11 and my little brother was 9 we were pretty much on our own. We had to figure out how to get food, shelter and all the normal stuff a kid needs. We were close for a few years. I tried to protect him and he tried to protect me. I think when you go through trauma together, you get pulled closer together—it forms a real bond. I can understand the struggle of watching somebody you care about have a tough time. My little brother has pretty much gone over the deep end—he never recovered from our traumatic childhood. I feel for him and it is difficult to think about everything he is going through…I wish I could have done something to change his life.

I don’t have any real answers for you…I hope you know you are not alone. Watching a little brother suffer is difficult.

[mick07]

Thanks -- Things are looking better. I thought I'd worked my way through alot of that old stuff. It has a way of sneaking up on me. When things are going well I can usually work through this but I've been facing a lot of triggers lately and it seems to get overwhelming. It may be time to revisit the therapy thing.
I'm so sorry to hear about your brother- I know how it hurts.