all my life i suffered with depression, specially after emotional abuse started at 3 and sexual abuse started at 8. i am going to be assessed and provided with a psychotherapist tomorrow morning. psychiatrist is going to get my meds right at last and is pulling out all the stops for me to get long term therapy.
i am terrified of bringing up past, but happy that i am on my way to recovery after 39 years of misery.
when i am well i want to become a councelor for people likemyself and abused children, i am finally looking forward. i want to thank each and every one of you on here for restoring some kind of trust in human nature. you have helped me so much. i will prolly be a mess for the next few weeks to start with, but hopefully still here for others too. i believe talking to each other about similar problems is a huge benefit and i mean this from my heart - if i didn't have pc i seriously dont think i'd be here now. that's how important you all are to my family and i.
my advice, although it is hard for some peole, is to journal or write down feelings good and bad,it's helped me no end specially with all the replies and support i have had.
there is always someone here to rely on, love you all and doc john is a saint as far as i'm concerned, and all the moderators and admin of course.

thankyou everyone.

love, kerry xoxoxoxoxo(jinnyann)

[Perna]

Good luck on your new road! Sounds like you have a good running hopeful start :-) Yes, do keep us informed on your progress!

{{{jinnyann/Kerry}}}

[Calm]

Hi jinnyann,

I hope your appointment tomorrow goes well. You're taking a huge step in the right direction, and hoping for you that healing from your past will come and you'll find some peace.

[mtd]

Jinnyann,

I am very happy for you. It really sounds like you are making healthy choices for yourself, and accepting your healing process with great courage. It is hard to embrace the hope of tomorrow while working hard to heal from the past, but I believe by doing both we can heal faster and better. And I really agree that when we help each other heal, we heal a bit more ourselves as individuals also.

Well done, Jinnyann.

mtd

thankyou everyone, didn't go well, still on2 year waiting list. managed to get cancellation with university pdoc who is getting me assessed, getting my meds changed, when i feel less depressed and suicidal he will get me long term help.had all my pills confiscated, only allowed to havethem dispensed .so good news this fantastic man at uni is doing something useful. i could kiss him. his initial diagnoses is bi polar ptsd and borderline and clinicl depression. joys.

jin