i went back to bed cos it's cold and i'm miserable. i had a dream i was 15 and living back in our old house. we were having a yard sale but it was inside!! too many peope came and the food was old and mouldy, people were moaning. there were mice running everywhere and i was trying to catch them and put them in a cage, they kept getting out because the wire was too thin. my abuser turned up and i ran upstairs, my mum followed, i told her there was no way i was coming back down to help if he was there. she started yelling in front of all these people and calling me a liar and he never abused me, i was crying and it ended up mum and me were physically fighting. she started laughing and she hit me (she never used to hit me irl) i tried to get upstairs again but she was dragging me down and he walked in and she was trying to get me to apologise to him. i woke up and i feel shaky and sick. what do these dreams mean, is it my brain getting to deal with all the crap or what? dreams affect me and this one was bad as all the people from my village watched this going on. i hate dreams. they affect me for the rest of the day. i feel like i hate my mum even though it was a dream.
jin

[asylumgardens]

I have nightmares a lot, more than once a week usually. I don't know how to really help. I've asked my therapist and doctors about it, but they don't really have a solution besides medication. The only thing I can suggest is I tend to watch a movie that is really funny to get my mind off of it otherwise, like you, it'll just stay on my mind all day. Also, I'm sure you know but don't hate your mom over it, since it was a dream. I think if you can get your mind off of the dream, it'll help.

I dont hate my mum I just dont like her and cant understand why she let me down as a child and didn't protect me. she called me everyday when this depression was at its worst. she has a new boyfriend and i haven't heard from her since. selfish, selfish, selfish, is how she is. yes perhaps i should clal her is what you are thinking maybe, well, she can go to hell.

i'm not putting up with any more of her crap. she will end up a sad lonely old woman being as i'm the only one. what goes around comes around. she'll be in touch when he finds out what she's like and dumps her.

jin

[asylumgardens]

Oh, well I didn't really know your whole situation with your mom. That is very selfish of her, and you shouldn't have to put up with it. I hope you have a good day despite the dream ((((jinny))))

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i'm sorry i went off on one there, of course you dont know and weren't to know my situation, i hope i didn't offend you in any way

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jinnyann xoxoxoxoxox

[asylumgardens]

No, you didn't offend me at all (((jinny)))