[Lady Lindsey]

Hello all,

I have been gone for quite some time, so much has happened this past year.

The holidays have been very tough for me, I didn't even get my tree up. Hubby finally put it up two days ago. Went out and bought gifts today, but can't seem to find the energy to wrap them.. I know I will have them wrapped by the morning, and be the perfect hostess for the holiday dinner, will I remember it, no... holidays are just too hard, especially now that two very young and beautiful family members now watch over me from heaven... or where it is that we go when we pass on....

I know that holidays are rough, and I know that I will get through them.. I always do, I guess that's a benefit of dissociation, I can deal with things, I don't want to, and go on.. even though I choose not to remember them.. maybe one day I will be strong enough.

In the meantime, I hope this post was not triggering. May you all have a safe and peaceful Holiday season!

[skeksi]

I have a hard time, too. Try to remember that it doesn't have to be picture-perfect. You do what you can and it is okay. It's okay for your husband to do some of the heavy lifting when you can't find the strength.

I've been trying to remind myself that my feelings are okay. Even if I'm sad, or angry, or scared, that's how I feel and it's not Bad to feel that way.

You can be sad. The feeling will pass, and so will this day. Take gentle care of yourself today!

[Cat_Lover_58]

It can be exhausting getting through it all. Hugs and comfort coming your way...