[Miktis25]

I'm writing a letter to my father, John, who abused me as a child. I have dissociative amnesia, and despite all the problems I've had I didn't know exactly what happened until a few months ago and I can't be around him anymore - it's too much. I won't go into the things he does and did, but I know for definite thatI want to separate myself from him.

I'm not sure how to strart it, I've got, "Dear father". but that's all. I know what I want to include. I just need a first line, something less blunt than "this is a letter to tell you I don't want you to contact me again". I've thought about "I wanted to tell you that..." but have no way to finish it. I'm stuck, it's annoyingly the one part I can't word

[CopperStar]

Maybe it is a sign that you should just skip the introduction altogether. He knows who you are, he knows what he did, he will know why you are doing this. No need to coddle him.

[Miktis25]

Originally Posted by CopperStar

Maybe it is a sign that you should just skip the introduction altogether. He knows who you are, he knows what he did, he will know why you are doing this. No need to coddle him.

I see what you mean, I just don't know how to start otherwise though, it doesn't feel 'right' without some way of beginning it.. I know part of it is because I worried about how he'll react, so I want to make it as 'nice' as possible. I hate trying to tiptoe around him, and I know I shouldn't, but he'll be mad enough... else I'd just need two words and I'd be done.

[Miktis25]

I kind of found the solution to my problem... I am useless at expressing myself in English, but feel more able to speak out in German. I think I'll write it in German or my native Platt; I'll feel more comfortable saying what I really want to say and I'll feel less 'conscious' of what I'm saying, and it'll be easier to go straight into it without fussing so much over what sounds right and what doesn't