[understandmoon]

my sophomore year of high school, a girl handed me a backpack and asked me to walk down the hallway. I asked her what she wanted but when I turned around she was gone. I hear a guy screaming and yelling, down the hallway where's my backpack where's my **** backpack. I said hey bro. Here, some girl handed it to me my bad. HE was like Don't ****** touch me And sweared a ton. I told him he could tell the office if he want just relax and he kept swearing. So I was well here you go man, if you got a problem go to the principle I got no problem with it. As I walk, everything goes black, I come to and I'm standing with my boxing guard up and I'm being punched Then I uppercut him in the jaw, I'm completely confused but whatever. He calls me a punk I run at him we just starting going blow for blow But after awhile I feel like I'm getting pressed back. Till a guy breaks up the fight. When he looks at me he's shocked. The guy walks off as the teachers come. He says I **** you up And I screamed you didn't **** anyone up and he ran. I later learned he ran to the nurses office because all his knuckles were broke.

Possible trigger:

The blood I had was from him, my lip, and a reopened nose bleed.

From that day, I've felt uncomfortable with fights. I've been training like crap. I've been boxing my punching bag for days. I can't watch fight compilations without feeling uneasy(not like I liked them before), but fightning gives me anxiety.Am I tramatized?Feel like I lost. No one looked down on me for the moment. I didn't cause it. I got more friends from it then people who mocked me. It was the only time I've ever wanted to hurt someone so bad after. I felt weak.

[Skeezyks]

Hello understandmoon: I'm sorry you are only now receiving a reply to your first post here on PC. Welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

Different people can be traumatized by different things. What you describe would certainly have been traumatizing for me! I guess time will tell to what extent this experience will have a lasting effect on you, if it does. From what you wrote, it doesn't sound as though fighting is something you've typically been frightened by in the past. So it may be that the effects of this particular experience will fade over time. That's about all I can say with regard to this.

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[understandmoon]

Thanks skeezyks, my friends kinda pushed it off and said I was just repeating myself but I didn't really know how to let out the odd feeling it always gave me. I really appreciate the openess you gave. I really appreciated.