[Charljwl]

When I was a child, my birth family was very dysfunctional. If I had a friend, my father would make sure that they were no longer around. I am having a hard time because I am very lonely and I feel like I am in a world full of people, but they don't understand what happened to me and I believe that they don't want to be friends with me. But, I really need a good friend.

I have Major Depressive Disorder and I am struggling really bad. I have an autistic child that I am trying to care for and I love him very much, but have been wanting to go to Heaven lately. I can't help it. I look at old people and I get jealous of them because they are almost at the end and get to go to The Lord. I feel like I have 30 years left and I don't know how I will handle it so lonely.

I really need friends to talk to. Will you help me?

[Skeezyks]

Hello Charljwl: I'm sorry you are feeling so alone. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support. I'm afraid I'm not the type of person you're looking for in the way of a friend. (I'm one of those old people you mentioned in your post.) However there are lots of members here you can be friends with. The key is really to post lots of your own threads & reply to lots of other members' posts. And also participate in some of the "chats":

https://forums.psychcentral.com/calendar.php

Over time you'll find many friends here.

Since this is your first post here on PC... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

[gmts]

Dear, you just made the first step into the right Direction

[Casey Lopez]

Dear Charljwl,

I was a loner too. You're welcome to be my friend . See you often here. Okay?

Originally Posted by Charljwl

When I was a child, my birth family was very dysfunctional. If I had a friend, my father would make sure that they were no longer around. I am having a hard time because I am very lonely and I feel like I am in a world full of people, but they don't understand what happened to me and I believe that they don't want to be friends with me. But, I really need a good friend.

I have Major Depressive Disorder and I am struggling really bad. I have an autistic child that I am trying to care for and I love him very much, but have been wanting to go to Heaven lately. I can't help it. I look at old people and I get jealous of them because they are almost at the end and get to go to The Lord. I feel like I have 30 years left and I don't know how I will handle it so lonely.

I really need friends to talk to. Will you help me?

[benzenering]

I'll be your friend! I'm a loner as well, but that doesn't mean I don't get lonely from time to time.

...and, welcome to PC!