Compulsive lying

Well this is hard to do very hard but I want to get this out and share it so I wont feel so alone.Im a compulsive liar and have used lieing as a coping skill to get through the horrors of my abuse for my whole life.Im very scared to share this with you all but I think it will help me to move forward.I have been lieing since I was a child and Im 52 now.I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Schizoaffective DID and PTSD.I am ready to face the reasons why I lie and tell the truth.I know the truth will set me free.I lie about everything I lie about my family relationships.I have a son but he doesnt talk to me and I have grand kids but I dont get to see them but I used to say I had a good relationship with him and with my grandkids.I lied about working and have been on disability since 2002.I lied about having a drivers license.There are so many lies I told but now Im ready to change.Im currently only seeing a psychiatrist but will call on monday to get a therapist.I have past bad issues with therapy so getting a therapist provokes fear in me.Thanks for listening and for any support you can offer

ladyrain

I think it's important you recognized what you did and are getting help for it. It will be very hard to change your ways but now you are on the right path. Keep with it.

Thank you RaisingKay for your kind response.I intend to keep with it.Yes it will be hard but my recovery and healing are worth it to me.

I used to lie a lot when I was in my teens, but I chose to start being honest always after that. One thing I've learned that not everyone wants to or believes the truth. Nevertheless, I've found it better to be honest, and you'll feel better about yourself.

Hi Maven,

thanks for your kind words.Right not everyone does believe the truth but I agree its better being honest.

Ladyrain

Hello ladyrain: My best wishes on your upcoming therapy. I've told more than my share of lies during my lifetime as well. I also became a master at being secretive. Some of it was for the protection of others. But a lot of it... most of it really... was for my own.

I'm getting old now & I just keep to myself. So there's no longer much of anything to lie about or anyone to lie to. The one thing I will add though is that the one time I actually did come out & tell the real truth, it turned out nobody really cared anyway. Sometimes I think things that are troublesome to us, things that cause us guilt & shame, are of much greater import to us than they are to anyone else. More often than not, I think, we are our own worst critics.

Skeezyks said:
Hello ladyrain: My best wishes on your upcoming therapy. I've told more than my share of lies during my lifetime as well. I also became a master at being secretive. Some of it was for the protection of others. But a lot of it... most of it really... was for my own.
I'm getting old now & I just keep to myself. So there's no longer much of anything to lie about or anyone to lie to. The one thing I will add though is that the one time I actually did come out & tell the real truth, it turned out nobody really cared anyway. Sometimes I think things that are troublesome to us, things that cause us guilt & shame, are of much greater import to us than they are to anyone else. More often than not, I think, we are our own worst critics.

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Thanks for your words here and for being able to relate.I know I am my worst critic.Your very kind

ladyrain