[itsjustme111]

"I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears. If you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave because your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone. You used to captivate me by your reasoning light, but now I'm bounded by the life you left behind. Your face, it haunts my once pleasant dreams, your voice it chased away all the sanity in me. I've tried to tell myself that you're gone, and though you're still with me, I've been alone all along. When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears, when you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears, and I've held your hand through all of the years, but YOU STILL HAVE ALL OF ME. And though you're still with me, I've been alone all along."

[SweetCrusader]

big evanescence fan! I saw your other post a minute ago) me, too! oh man i LOOOOOOVVVVEEEE this song. i used to listen to this and cry over the guy i loved, because it could never be....

(((((((((((((itsjustme111))))))))))) sorry that you can relate to this, too. that's sad.

thanks for reminding me of this song, because i needed it. it is comforting to me.

Angela (SC)


-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-

[Butterfly_Faerie]

itsjustme111,

I'm sorry you are feeling this way, abuse is not an easy thing to just get over it takes alot of time and paitents to be able to say ok I'm not going to let this rule my life anymore. It took me 8 years to be able to say that I no longer have PTSD and no longer blame myself for what happened, I do get triggered, I still get body memories but I likely will.

I know it's hard to deal with.

Have you talked to anyone about this to start your healing journey?

Again i'm sorry you feel this way, I know how it feels all to well.

Take care of you and know that you are not to blame, even though it's a scary thing, but there is help out there for those of us who dealt with any kind of abuse.

Hang in there, there is hope, there is help.

And keep posting here whenever you feel the need too, you will find alot of support here, this is a great board.

(((itsjustme111)))

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[SweetCrusader]

i had never applied this to abuse before... hmm.... i guess i can see where that connection comes from. i'm haunted by it, too.

take care, itsjustme


-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-