[Emnico]

A lot of my abuse stems from recovered memories and so, as I get older I find that I have issues with telling the fake from the real?

As an example, I was laying in bed staring at my popcorn ceiling a few nights ago and I had a sudden flashback. My issue is that I can never tell what is an actual memory and what is just my mind filling in blanks.

This particular flashback contained someone asking me a question of a sexual nature that made me deeply uncomfortable. It’s just hard to figure out why my brain is readily supplying random dialogue and images, if they’re not real? But also some times I start to think it’s just a symptom of the panic attack induced by the flashback and that I’m “filling in blanks” as a means to understand.

I don’t know but they’re becoming more frequent and troublesome

[Skeezyks]

I like to read, & watch TV programs, about brain research that is being done using fMRI technology. And one thing that stands out is our memories are a lot less reliable than we would typically imagine. So, whenever I have some memory surface, I always at least consider the possibility that it is either not true at all, or that it is at least not accurate. Plus as I get older (& I am definitely getting older) it seems as though more-&-more of my memories are gradually melting away... not that there aren't a few still sticking around that I wish would go by the wayside.

Are you familiar with the practice referred to as "compassionate abiding"? It is my all-purpose technique for working with anxiety, intrusive thoughts, & other similar concerns. Here's a link to a mental-health-oriented description of the practice, in case you're not:

https://mindsetdoc.wordpress.com/201...e-abiding-101/

May it be of benefit.