[johngoh]

I was a mentally healthy boy during primary school with ba 230 psle score 4 As as i went into seconday school imy grades dropped i was picked on and i started not being able to think. During sec 2 my uncle started to pick on me by putting me in my room and beating scolding making me feel like the most usless person on earth , he say he's just trying to use hard disciplin on me but made me go bipolar during sec 3 with his abuse and the IMH doctor didn't do anything when i pointed him out that he did to me and even called me spoiled after talking to my uncle. My uncle is president of a leading insurance company in singapore. As the years gone by i beacme withdrawn passive , hypersensetive , unable to tell joke from insult, scared , unstable and think of what he did to me when ever i feeel stressed.As time gone passed i cannot tell subtlety , read body language or even look at people in the face when i talk to them , became violent during mood swings attempted sucide because i keep hearin
his vocies scolding me, have a sense of everything is a walk in the garden from listening to what he say after the hospitalizxation, and my whole family supports him . MY mother asked me to go off my meds for a week, made incidents and recorded in the army, and IMH then together with my uncle threatended subtly that if i don't do things their way they will add to it. SHOuld i make a police report and clear my name and sue him? he's offering top play uni fees in aus where he can monitor me and make sure i don't squeal with my mother watchign , plus he say he will not allow me to go to too good a uni because of the "prerssure" and now my gandmother and the rest of the family has cut me off from the will, mother took out my sim card and said i dropped it got a new phone and said i was holding the wrong one as i was calling my friends and contacts for help and helplines.now they told the army to pes f me and want to send me away on the nearest opportunityn not even my grandfather supportmy whole family want to know where i see a psychoilogist so they can interfwere,. using emotional blackmail and i cannot think, comnfusion as soon as i think i forget as my attention shifts SHould i make a police report and see a private psychrisit to say my side of the story?im not paraniod but my faimly gives me specially prepared meals that are delicious and seperate from waht they eat, however recently as i eat it over the months recently my meomery has been fading and they urge me to eat more. am i getting some kind of drug to make me forget ? cause after every incdient i forget totally and more and more my don;t remeber the past, problems i face i was told short term memorym is a nurological problem. my friend says i can't answer who is "my name" question and my school mates say there' ssomething wrong about him. preseumnably from the way i act. awkard movements shy withdrawal. my father and mother were not around one diovorced andf the other working and line dancing m,aking friends was the above blackmail how casn i stop my family from interfering with a psychologist?they will all point the problem to me or twist it as i cannnot explain well as i have a foggy mind in this i cannot explain the full circumstance just roghly as i eep forgeting
am 20 the abue happend when i was 15-16 then hospitalized my friends on my contacts don't wanna /cannot help as they don;t know how
don';t know but i think my uncle has tried to cover up the abuse by twisting the truthas it happened behind closed doors. they brand me paraniod , crazy ungrateful while my unlce a's sits on the bord of chruch methodists in singapore as a planner something with losts of pr for himself... as my mum faked those incidents and aded to my psychological record , i will find it hard to get a job as here's employers can see in the first round of hr checks my uncled is a NUS scholdar , UCLA Mba whomk the whole fasmily admires as sucessful and that's why my graqndmother sides with him and says he just scoleded me.it's been 6 years my mother has discounted many of my symptoims and as time passed i don't even notice them anymore help but i know i saw the world verydiffrently
like problems like slow movemnt etdc

is memomry loss a symptom of bipolar disorder?

i really don't know what to do my whole immdiate family is aganist me
my unlce speaks like how do you say indirectly but his tone andf enucqations ajndand choice of words say what he's trying to say
he says that people believe what's on the outside but don't see what's on the inside i think he cooped up a stroty and when asked why this happended jhe said somem peopke are just repicious and cruel and made refereces to me being a clerk in sinagpore army,just a lowly clerk" as with my cionditions i coukld only do that

think searched my pockets and found the number for probono lawers and raffles medical what do i do they make act premerturely and im afradi to f\go home as i may find police / startit jacket when my mum made the incidents were reported my grandma tries to keep tabs on me on where i go




What would drive another to purposely try to make a person go crazy? Assuming you overheard it with your own ears. Assuming you know it to be true... Someone is trying to hurt you by making you go crazy, for instance doing something and pretending it never happened, playing mind games, trying to make you believe you are crazy.. what is the purpose of this?

should i show my psychrist this post casue i cannot remeber

their playing mind games

[1oxbowgirl]

I am sorry to hear of your abuse. Some people get amusement from hurting other people. I have never understood this kind of reasoning. I would tell my psych doctor, if I were you and maybe he can help. You are in a different country than mine so I can't recommand other services to you. In that regard, maybe your friends can help. I will keep you in my prayers that things get better for you and that you find a safe place to live.

[DePressMe]

johngoh, sounds like you have had a lot happen to you--a lot of it not very good. I would definitely talk with my psychiatrist about it. Maybe he or she could help you. If you are having problems remembering, maybe it would help to write things down as you think about them and then take the letter to your psychiatrist. I often do that. Please know we are here to support you. Oh, welcome to PsychCentral!