[DePressMe]

I will give you the rest of these cigarettes if you let me do it.

I’ll be right back.

You are a ***** just like your mother.

I hate you.

You embarrass me.

Why do you always wear dirty clothes?

You are beautiful.

Is there always something wrong with you?

You are not good enough.

Drink this, it will make you feel better.

I am sorry.

You are not worth it.

I won’t tell anybody.

Don’t tell anybody.

You deserve it.

What’s wrong with you?

You liar.

Just take off your clothes.

I won’t touch you, I just want to look at you.

Does that feel good?

Stop crying.

I’ll give you a reason to cry.

I’ll make you wish you were never born.

Does that hurt?

It will feel good.

Don’t you ever do that again.

Don’t you love me?

Shut up.

You #&$##*&^ *&^^%&^

your list makes my heart break.... maybe we should all add to it our own... maybe it would feel better...

((((hugs)))

[DePressMe]

Thanks freewill. It helps to know you are here for me.

So many of these sound so horribly familiar. Please know I am here if you need to talk.

(((((((((((((depressme)))))))))))))

this list is so sad. You are such a beautiful person, no way do you deserve this, know I care and pm me anytime. I can listen...

Jin xxxx

[mtd]

So many of these messages are about blaming the victim. For me, it's been hard to unlearn these things as an adult.

I'm sorry this has been part of your life, and all of ours.

be well,

mtd

[Cyran0]

That list cuts like a knife.

I'm so sorry D. In my brief time here I've seen many sides of you and I think you are one of the most amazing people I've ever met. And because of that there's one phrase I hope that one day you can take off that list, "You are beautiful." Because you are. Physically, emotionally, mentally. And you deserve to take pride in that. You deserve to love yourself. But most of all, you deserve to hear that phrase uttered by someone who truly loves you and be able to take the compliment.

I'm a hypocrite because that phrase, though never spoken by my abusers, would be on my list too.

So I hope maybe we can all get to that place one day and take the compliment, and the love, when we receive it.

Cyran0

[Sabrina]

I am so sorry!

Yet, there was one thing on your list that I hope you will be able to want to hear again ......... "you are beautiful" ........ for you are. Inside and out!

[sabby]

((((((((((((((( DePressMe )))))))))))))))))

This list brought tears to my eyes.

Not fair that you had to endure all the abuse....but look who and what you have become because of it. You are a wonderful soul with so much to give. Our paths in early life are not our own....we cannot control where people lead us. But you have taken control as an adult. I'm so very sorry that you have these terrible things to have to work through. But your strength and abilities shine through and show just how wonderful you truly are. I'm not trying to downplay what you have said here.....just trying to uplift with the positive side you have shown to all here at PC. You are a unique and wonderful human being and we are all better for having been the recipients of your love, understanding and support.

xoxoxo
sabby

[DePressMe]

Thank you everybody--I always know I can come here to find support and understanding. It means a lot to me that each of you took the time to write me a note. Please know how much I appreciate each and every one of you.

[happyflowergirl]

ohhh, that list of things makes me cringe for I have heard those things before too. I am so sorry you had to endure all of that in your life. Are you in therapy to help?

[DePressMe]

Hi happyflowergirl! Yes, I have been in therapy for many years. Today I feel pretty good about how much I have healed from my past abuse. I find that sometimes it helps to write some of it out here and get support from others.

I really do know that most of those things were lies or just mean manipulative things said to an innocent child.

[50guy]

That list. It shook me.

[happyflowergirl]

I am glad you have been in therapy. I started almost 3 years ago and I am 38. I am not starting over in my life doing the things I was never allowed to do as a child or could do. I am going to college and having a great time. I am playing the trumpet again and I started playing the guitar. I feel like it is my 2nd chance in life. It is good to hear you have been progressing, this gives hope to me that I too, can suceed and get past my past.

[happyflowergirl]

I love your dancing start quote, did you write it ?

[salukigirl]

well here i was going to be all sweet and emtotional - luckily i read the posts firsts or else it would have basically been repeating cyran0.

i understand where all those things come from and am here for you. for me its more actions i never want to see again but there are words in there also. im not sure if this website allows what kinds of cuss words but to be blunt the word "%#@&#!" would be on mine.

[DePressMe]

happyflowergirl--the quote is from Friedrich Nietzsche. There are several variations of it...it is one of my favorites.

[altonwoodsdrphil]

I'm late here but I'd like to put my spin on it as well by doing for "the truth" what some would do for a lie...

you are a person of great courage who has crawled down the same broken glass strewn trash filled alleys as I have seeking to be loved. You could've been content to sit on the sidelines of life and pretend to have it or ridicule those poor people who so misguidedly seek it but this was not your nature. We do what we do for ourselves,and sometimes it makes no sense until we realize that we have come thru our darkness only to be made aware of our true strength and calling to help others find theirs as well.When we experience our own healing keeping it to ourselves is not an option. I can now bless all of those painful things I went thru because I know there was a purpouse behind them, walk with your head high! you are the victor here and what was meant for evil has been turned into your strength and joy! Your life is your ministry so keep sharing it with anyone who will listen. God bless you an keep you!

[_Hope_]

that sounds so painful. I feel for you. From what I have seen of you from your many posts is that you are a very strong yet sensitive person. you are someone I would happily call "friend"

Linda

[happyflowergirl]

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happyflowergirl--the quote is from Friedrich Nietzsche. There are several variations of it...it is one of my favorites.

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WOW! I didn't know that, I feel kinda stupid being a phil. major in school. lol