Sod off you piece of **** What do you want to say to your abuser

abuser 1. Why didn't you take me to the doctor after i was raped at 9?
2. how could you rape a 9yr old? how can you live with yourself?
3. why do that to your family???
4. How? why?

abuser 2&3 : I'd like to end their lives, painfully.

I just want to give you a hug through the screen.

What kind of scumbag physically assaults a 5 year old girl?? I hope your life was as horrible as mine has been! Thanks for all you've destroyed in me. Hope u pay in misery constantly, like I do, u subhuman piece of filthy trash.

How could you hurt me so much with your words on the internet? Now I have flashbacks of the abuse. How could you mentally abuse and physically abuse your own children and force your youngest daughter to take care of you?

Eff y’all To all those irl who tried to judge me and remove me. none of y’all were effective, I have observed your cruelty and lies over time. I wish them all the best with their recovery,
(Not about anyone on pc)

Eff y’all

(not about anyone on pc)

*Trigger Warning*......I'm a ridiculed adult failure because of both of yours sexual deviance. I was a 5 year old. I never stood a chance in life. I'm left holding the shattered pieces of my personality & life, u stole away from me. This is unjust. I need to break free of these chains u put on me. You're both very twisted & sick. Today I pay the ultimate price. GRACIAS

To one guy...wow, I'm getting rather emotional...there's a special place in hell for you.

To my current stalker - The Shogun wishes you to preserve your honor. I would be glad to serve as your second for seppuku.

Family Scapegoat Abuse Syndrome

Stop the groupthink, narcissistic family dynamics of scapegoating the truth speaker.

Thanks,
HD7970ghz

I wrote a whole letter to my abuser the other night. I won't give it to them of course, but sometimes to vent my anger without turning it into some huge drama, I'll write it out to say what I want to say.

One of the things I said was this: If I get married, you're not invited to the wedding. If I ever have children, you're not allowed near them. I don't want you to hurt anyone I love or who is precious to me. You will never hurt my loved ones the way you have hurt me. Ever. EVER.

I kind of feel like a monster for saying something like that, but man, I felt it so strongly.

Your selfish, evil acts set me on a path to never respect, love or care about myself. My whole life has been one abuse after another until I can no longer trust anyone I'm grateful that you couldn't destroy my family or the few close friends I maintain. Were you jealous of a happy healthy family? People who took you in to help you? You polluted our lives and it affects us all, right down to our own grandchildren. Why

"when you die, i will piss on your graves for how you treated me and that's a promise."

Actually, all of you SOB's who criminally abused me, aren't worth my thoughts, period! Byyeeeee....

Hi Shovelhead,

I have been reading a few of your posts in this thread and feel for you. I have been saying a silent prayer in my heart that you get gifted some kind of emotional release or freedom from what happened to you. That comes from your soul. Like you get some sense of spiritual connection with it that makes what this person and what they did to you a powerless nothing ( along with then so you can see them for what they really are, a person of cowardice and weakness who has betrayed their own soul) faced with strength you find in your soul.
(P.S. I have found a lot of help from doing a meditation where I give up my problem to angels who "take it away"; also, I do Focusing in this meditation whereby I feel hurtful emotions in my body where we supposedly store our trauma ...also do visualizations of inner child work. There is also books on Inner Child art therapy that could help. More therapists are now doing therapy based on trauma stored in the body and processing it. ....I have found this helpful. And I truly believe in spiritual help and it is possible to feel a sense of the invulnerability of your own soul. ...Your self may never truly get over what was done to you as a helpless child, but your soul is untouched by what happens to your personality. And if you connect with it you could feel that same sense of being bigger than what any person could ever do to you. It could give some peace. Also, it will show you that your abuser is abused when they abused you. You have to be to do that to someone else. ...This goes past the physical side to things and shows you the emotions beneath it: people who don't believe in themselves or love themselves abuse others.

You most likely alread know that. But it is feeling it to be true, which you get from getting in connection with your soul, even just once for a split second. Abusers always feel a lack of love for themselves that until they attone for what the did to someone else, they will never cure. I know this for a fact.
I know it because I was shown it by my soul.

That's what you need. Since nothing less will do.
I pray for this to happen for you. ...I have been praying for it to happen again to my self with what I have been going through recently. It's a very elusive gift. ...Instead I am working towards it in my mediation and in other therapies. But I thought I'd tell you the truth of what is really happening in peoples' hearts, since I have seen what abusers really believe. My soul showed me. The one true source, nothing else is so real by comparison to it....and also in writing all this mean to remind my self because I forget what I learned all those years ago my self (wish it had been a stronger/longer connection,but oh well, so glad to have had it. I wish it for you).

HAHA! I searched your name...I see you're in PRISON! R.O.T...mofo!!!! I would like to read more details, but I'm busy! Looks like u got many years!!! What'd u do? Stay rotting.....I hope your sentence was LIFE

TO Member: Delphini......Thank you so much for your post & kind words/advice for me. I sent you a message. Anyways, LOOK at my old post u quoted, of mine. U picking that particular old post of mine, was prophetic, to say the very least!! What I wrote, meant for 1 abuser, " I hope you're living in utter squalor & filth. I hope your daily existence is pure Misery." So, I recently found out that specific abuser is doing hard time in a maximum security PRISON.Justice was served, many ways & probably alot more to come. I'm really thinking he committed some heinous crimes. He was pure evil.

How could you offer to help a person in distressed? Then become hateful toward that person. Why bother speaking to the victim? If you are not interesting helping out?

That describe my parents!

I'll never forgive you. I don't care about your circumstances, you still made that choice. I don't care that you've buried it so far down that you're confused as to why I hate you. If anything, you've burdened me more by making me remember each time I see your face how you don't want to remember what you did to me.

I forgive you all and love you all and I pray for you.

What has happened has happened and I pray that you find peace to carry on and treat people with kindness and respect. Let me live my life on my own in peace and I'll do everything in my power to become a decent and stronger person.

You have forever made an impact in my life, you've caused more damage than ever imaginable. You taught me something, family isn't family. Family is something thrown around, something unrealistic and something unobtainable. Family is an excuse for us to make traumatizing decisions and get away with it. However, I'm dealing it with it, I'm trying too. One thing I do know is you'll never have control over me and my life again. I have to deal with the fact and live with the fact that you did this to me but that doesn't have to stop me from growing and being a better person. I'm still learning how to pick myself back up, but one day I will get there and I will come out stronger than ever. I don't need family, I need me and I deserve happiness, something you'll never feel for every time you go to register as a sex offender (highest one-highest level), every time you look yourself in the mirror, every day you're alive you have to deal with the fact you raped someone. You are everyone's worst night mirror, every father who has a daughter will hate you. You will have to carry the shame and guilt I carried for so many years.

I deserved better.

I wish you really loved us, and if you think you do, then go to a therapist because the way you treat us isn’t normal