Feeling alone

Hi,
I joined last yr but this is my first real post so please forgive any errors...
I'm in a bad situation with my parents. Everyday is a struggle with my mental illnesses, incl. ocd and anxiety, reality is often blurry

I think I need to move out of my parents', but it's not so simple.
I don't know who is the bigger bully- my mental disorders or my own family?

I'm so scared and I feel so alone. I always fantasized about having that warm, loving family and friends that I could call my family. Now, I'm mentally tormented and friendless, and I don't know what to do. I thought family meant everything but now I want to run away from my parents.

I couldn't handle it and told my parents honestly how I felt- about their behaviour now, and what happened in the past. I called my dad "an abusive father my whole life." My dad looked me in the eye, acted kind and reasonable and said that he had never been abusive.

He then went on to say that if he were an abusive father I would have been kicked out, and he wouldn't be supporting me financially right now.

My mother called me the devil, and when I called her out for enabling everything and being abusive too, she managed to make me out to be the abuser.

My mental issues are a challenge, my physical problems I developed over the last decade or so cause me stress too, now I have to confront the reality that my parents are, well, evil and sick? I feel all alone and I wish that I had a real friend to talk to about this, but at the same time I am used to being alone and I don't know who to turn to anymore.

Thanks if you read this far :/