[sup_sarah]

It's a horrible thing to imagine, much less talk about. Yes, I was raped, and I've never ever been the same since. So I decided to make this thread for people who have had this terrible thing happen to them and need somebody to talk to. Or somebody who has had a loved one who had been raped or molested.

I want to make it clear that this thread is not only for people who have been raped by sexual intercourse but just sexual abuse in general.

I'm open enough to share my story on this website but I'd like to hear from others first. It's kinda hard to open a door to your entire world without anybody else there with you. Even if nobody else wants to share their story, just know, you're not alone.

[Sherryanne]

Hi,

I'm so sorry that you were raped, I'm sending hugs your way. I too was molested as a child and then sexually assaulted as a teenager. It still haunts me today. Just wanted to let you know that I can relate to what you are saying.

[Cyran0]

Hi Sarah. I'm so sorry that happened to you. I was molested as a child so I don't quite have that before and after perspective but I completely sympathise.

Cyran0

[SerenitysWave]

Well... Here is a breif: some where between the ages of 4 and 7, I was gang raped by a cousin and three neighborhood kids... used as fondling tool til age 14 by cousin and other friends of his.... raped at age 10 by fathers friend kid... then at age 14 fondled/molested whatever ya want to call it by grandfather....

I really dont have much to compare before and after as I was quite young the first time around... I felt as if my body wasnt meant to be mine but for everyone else who pleased pleasure... I never told anyone that counted (parents, etc..) until two yrs ago, and I am 37 now... Its been a struggle and still contines to show its residual effects... but since I told my aprents, even tho I did not tell them the who's, it has helped...

I have no trouble talking about it... It is what it is and its apart of me and I have no shame for I know I am not at fault.. sometimes i feel dirty and used goods but I guess thats normal... Pple are surprised at how easily I can discuss it, I disassocaite from it..survival tool... I know that I split during two of the experiences... one of them I always had recall the other was revealed a few yrs ago by an alter, as did the memory...

I am sorry that you were also raped/molested... (((hugs)))

[its_me]

I was molested at the age of 5 by a school janitor, sexually assaulted by a cousin at the age of 10. At the age of 18 (graduation night)I have no recollection what so ever, but was date raped. Then at the age of 19 was raped and tried to go through the legal system - but he got off with a slap on the hand due to who he was related to in the small town where it happened.

I'm 46 and still have a lot of difficulties at times. My husband of 21 years has been the most understanding and sensitive man in my life - and he puts up with a lot. I don't believe I have ever been consistent with him when it comes to intimacy - but he continues to stand by me.

As for talking about my experiences - some are easier to discuss then others but I'm working on it...

[Sprite]

I cannot imagine being raped and the mental strain that would have on a person. My experience was that around ages 8-12 my sister would make me in her words pretend to have sex with her. No actual sex occured but still to this day i am haunted by this.

[I_miss_my_kitty]

I was fondled by my brother when i was young, once when I was about 8 i think i woke up because i felt someone touching my leg and his hand was in my underwear, I never told anyone he never really touched me again physically but i used to hang out in his room because he had a lot of books and I read a lot and he would be in his bed naked etc he sometimes used to tell me that he had an experiment for us to do and sometimes he made me touch his privates i felt horrible and still do I’m 17 now and sometimes i still feel terrible and I hate myself sometimes, i never said anything because I’m afraid to and I also don't want to get him in trouble and I’m not sure if anyone would believe me because once I told my dad that he watches me when I’m in the bath and my dad didn't say anything, anyways this all stop when i went to live with my mom and he's far away from me now so he can't hurt me anymore.

I feel terrible now after writing this but I thought should share I’m going to go now and cry.

[Junerain]

Everybody told me I was stupid to do this...........a good looking guy said his car had broken down and needed a ride to get a part for his car so he could get home to his wife and kids......then said he knew someone with a tow truck in the country,,,raped me out there......the police seemed more concerned about jurisdiction/which towns the rape occurred much, much more than if I was ok.......needed to talk to a rape crisis counsleor immediately...police wouldnt let me.....said paperwork to do first...i abandoned police at that point.....my pastor encouraged me to go back to them next day.....they apologized......I tried to have my rape crisis counselor sit in with the meeting with the police...police wouldn't have it...police took my car away for the week-end to get evidence....couldnt drive to work...........I HATE POLICE.....everyone at church was good though...churches good, police bad...

I am sorry to hear all of your stories and i hope you manage to move past this.
When i was 15 I was raped along side another girl i barely new in broad daylight. The man had a weapon and ran off afterwards. I managed to give the police a full description of what he looked like and they managed to catch him. The man (aged 46 at that time) is in prison now. The police were good to me but i have heard many stories of police being harsh. But i encourage anyone to go to the police, i really do. I spoke to a counsellor afterwards and by telling people and telling the police i have been able to move on fully. Please take care all of you. (((Hugs)))

[Parker1013]

I want to send everybody my love for sharing their stories. I have stories too, but I'm not ready to talk yet, I look up to all of you for being able to talk.