[SweetCrusader]

Pardon my language on this post...

I feel like I am at least about chest deep in *****. Only the ***** is me. How do you wade your way through it when it is you that you're trying to wade through? I feel like I'm worthless.

I hate my body. My stomache and my back just ache and ache and I get no relief. I am so tired, no matter how much I sleep. I desperately need to get out and exercise but I cannot find the strength to do so.

I feel like I'm slipping really bad. I can't seem to hang on. I'm wondering if I need to be medicated for depression or something.

I know I have to work through these abuse and neglect issues or it will never get better, but how do I survive to the end?

Angela

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-

[SweetCrusader]

i just realized i'm not sure about the policy on language, so if this is inappropriate, will a moderator please let me know, and delete it?

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-

[ktp]

this is my very first post here.

but I know EXACTLY how you feel. I feel the same way. It could've been me typing that message. I've not been diagnosed with a mental illness but have struggled my entire life with abandonment issues and depression. I am debating about whether it's time for me to be medicated as well.

Hold your head up, and you won't drown.
Things always get better, it's just hard to see it when you're where we are right now.

[SweetCrusader]

ktp,

welcome to psychcentral. I'm sorry you can relate (((hugs))) <--if ok.

i hope you will like it here

Angela

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-

[Butterfly_Faerie]

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[ktp]

thanks ozzie and SC...

Hugs are GREAT. Always make me feel better. I'm glad I found this place. Have ALOT of things that bother me, finally found a place with people who can relate.

Take Care!

[SweetCrusader]

thank you, sundance. you are always such a sweetie!

-comfort the disturbed and disturb the comfortable-

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((((((Angela))))))))))))))))))))

[whois333]

It sounds like you might benefit from seeing your dr. about your feelings and getting on an antidepressant. At least the meds will help you get out of the 'low, down deep' throw-your-hands- up part. I would suggest therapy and try researching online for some self-esteem issues and treatments that you can relate to.
I'm on meds, so my depression isn't that bad most of the time, but I'm REALLY bad about DOING anything, even though I KNOW it needs to be done....just like you said about exercise,etc. I keep telling myself I'll go walking every morning after I get my daughter onto the bus, since I'm dressed and out there anyway, but I don't do it. So I've been making myself at least walk down our street and around the court and back home, so at least I get THAT much exercise!
I figure even a little is better than nothing!

[SweetCrusader]

(((((Fuzzy))))))
((((((whois333)))))

Thank you. I'm actually doing a lot better than I was when I posted this. I have been in therapy for a couple of years. I've been dealing with some neglect issues, and they bring up feelings like the ones in this post.

Thank you for your caring,
Angela