[RACEKA]

I am uncomfortable crying in front of other people. I feel the urge I will hold it back the best I can or go somewhere to not be seen. I'm working with T on this. He wants me to journal about it this week. I don't know how deep it goes, but I don't like to show my feelings. I wasn't allowed to feel growing up. I would embarrass my mom if anyone saw me crying.

Does anyone else have this problem?

[chaotic13]

I am totally uncomfortable with crying. I can't even seem to cry alone at the moment. The thing is I feel totally stupid for wanting to be able to do this! I don't want to be one of those people who start balling at the drop of a hat, but there are times when people expect you to be upset and cry and I can't. There are times when I just feel like I want to explode and release raw emotion, but just can't for whatever reason.

I think my issue relates to my mother somehow too. I embarrassed my mother with my angry and aggressive outbursts though. I think my hang up with crying comes from her frequently being at wits end with my Dad and coming into my room crying all the time. As a little kid i absolutely hated that! I think I just don't want to ever but others in that situation.

Did your T suggest that you work on this, or did you decide this was something that you wanted to work on?

[bchlyn]

i can't cry either... and "feelings" the only feeling i seem to be able to identify is fear...lyn

[RACEKA]

I couldn't cry either when I started therapy. I do cry now and can't control it. I will cry in front of my T. I don't want anybody else to see me cry. I will keep myself from going places if I think it will be emotional. I've had to do some really tough things with my son lately. Stuff a loving mother never wants to do. I hadn't been going to church and T wanted me to go. I did and when people started hugging me telling me to call if they could help I started to cry. I hated it. Now I don't want to go back in fear of crying.

T wants me to talk to people on the phone for support and I said if I start talking about my situtation I will start crying and I don't want to reveal that part of me.

It just comes from the abuse.

[pachyderm]

Raceka

I would be inclined to want to control which people that I cried in front of.

[RACEKA]

"Control" That's a naughty word in my sessions!

T always acusses me of trying to control something.or somebody.

m mum told me to grow up and stop crying when i was 3/4 i have no problems crying now, i cry a lot, but always feel like a kid and feel i have to apologise

Jin x

[youOme]

Just recently my some of my friends and I were talking and they asked my how I did not cry or show emotion although I'm going through a difficult time in my life, with my separation and such. I can't cry or be upset in front of other people neither. The only emotion I can show in front of others in anger, and that's my temper that takes the best of me. Men would definitely have a harder time too. I think people are expected to have a strong appearance or conscience in order to be considered "together".