[crazy1]

i lost my post i am confused my head swims what is the truth. Was i abusd my body emotions ect say yes no pictures why. i wander aimlessly being shoved this way and that but what people say. i can't filter wha is mine and what is not. Who am I My head swims and feels like it will snap I used to think i made this up to get attention now i know that this is not there for no reason. My life is ugly. I need help I see a T i go to AA more confusion. I have a Doc dont understand what is wrong with me why is life so hard for me why is connecting to others so hard for me. AHHHHHHHHHH

[pachyderm]

You just connected...

[thelostone]

i understand much of what you are feeling. much of what you said is what i have been trying to put into words. i wish there was something i could say to you to help.

lost

[crazy1]

I feel so alone most of the time even when others are there. I can't do this by myself but afraid. My T says find a balance get grounded i don't even know what she is talking about. i have never known human touch and love i have never experienced it i thought it was bad. to need others bad to need help bad they say it is not but so ingrained mixed messages. Feel I feel need to find balance. What do you want from me. Who to trust.