maybe not a survivor

maybe not a survivor but just a stupid fool......not left still here day by day soryr

What is going on Mandy?

im so stupid thats all cant go hav too saty ned to saty cant do it so it all my own fault l am just so stupidnothin happenin it just me soryr

Mandy I'm not sure what the stuff that I put in bold up there ^ says?

hun, i know what your mind has been going through - you don't have to make a decision on any of that right now. try to just let things develop as they will. it will all make sense one day.
I've been where you're at (i think, judging by the title). Try to breathe and give yourself some peace.
((((((((((((((((((((((silent)))))))))))))))))))))))))

Mandy hon, you need to stay? Is that what you're saying? I'm so sorry you're struggling right now. Take some time on the decision, keep yourself safe!

I disagree. I think you taking the initiative to reach out to people means that you are a survivor and that you are a strong person. Its never your fault and anyone who tells you otherwise is just plain wrong. I understand the feeling that you can't get out but there are ways, trust me. Everyone here is here for you whenever you need us. I really hope you can figure things out.

You are a survivor and please don't doubt yourself...
Keep posting and let out everything that is bothering you, silentandscared. It's far better to get it out than to let it fester and cause you more anguish...

We know those feelings and the courage it takes to talk about them. I salute you for sharing...
You can do this and you won't be alone. Everyone here is pulling for you.
We Care.

Cap

((((silentandscared)))) There are many different ways to define survivor. No matter what definition or word you are using to describe yourself at the moment...its just a label and adjective...You will always be more than just a label. Example: Alive, caring, compassionate, human being.

Hi Silentandsacred,

"never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish....
few things are more humiliating and what a tragedy when they believe you"


Hey , did someone else put this signature in for you?

Did you know.. this caught my eye when I would see your cross. Did you know the name "silent and scared "is the halmark behavior of a survior ?

Thats how we survived . Did you know that the abusers want you to be this way? silenced? and they will do anything to brain wash you back into denial and make it about you that your the crazey one. Did you know its the most difficult place to be in the middle . My guess , from the distress thats comming through in your writing is that you may be regressing back to when you were told by your abuser at times you were not being abused . And that is so distructive.

Im winging it here because I know nothing about your story Silent.

Don't let ANYONE take your seat away Silent.

Aurora

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No this signature is mine and mine alone......it is there because it is what l believed then as a child........impossible to haVE OR TO WANT.........today l do want and that is the difference .........l want it and l will have it..........there is nothing more that they can take from me except maybe my life.......but that would be my choice and not theres this time......yes l am regressing back and forwards always wondering and always wishing that this was not me it did not happen but this is just not to be.................... l know l carry that hate in my heart as much as l try not tooo....................... love all forgive their sins and that is fine but l just cant forgive , validate or say that it doesnt matter because you know what IT DOES MATTER.......it matters alot they robbed me of things that l will never experience again................MY INNOCENT, CAREFREE CHILDHOOD but they will NOT take my adult hood tooo.
Thank you for even replying and for understanding what l am trying to say here it would appear that l am always wrong
silent is very scared....................so thank you xx