i am about to do something really stupid! im about to break a promise i made to someone 12 years ago!

yikes i just chickened out!

well instead of that, can i just ask you guys...do you think it is better to keep the skeletons in the closet? how did you feel when you told your secret?

[SweetCrusader]

~*~ cottoncandylocks ~*~

Honestly, I think it's best to tell the secrets. That doesn't mean it's easy, though. You have to make sure you are talking to someone who can listen in a respectful and supportive way. You also have to feel somewhat ready to tell them. I don't think you ever feel completely ready, because it's always scary to tell your secrets. But you can feel like maybe it's time. Does that make sense?

For me, I told my secrets to some friends that I wish I hadn't told. I wish I hadn't told them because they did not understand me at all and said I was crazy, even though they now knew the source of my problems. So that was a bad experience. However, when I (gradually and one issue at a time) got brave enough to tell my secrets to my therapist, it was the most rewarding and healing experience in all my life.

If you feel you are talking with (or posting to) people who will hear and understand (or at least try to understand) your pain, and the burden of the secret is wearing down on you, then maybe it is time to break the silence.

Best wishes to you

Angela

last night i couldnt sleep very well... and then when i was falling asleep, i heard a disturbing sound, like a voice. i couldnt understand what it said.... and i tried to convice myself it was my imagination... i wont allow myself to believe i heard "voices"!
i was so scared, that i couldnt fall asleep after hearing (or imagining ) the sound. the only thing that seemed to comfort me was remembering an incident of sexual abuse that occured when i was about 6. i layed there and fantasized it, trying to re-experience every part that i could remember... cuz at the end of the incidents, they became a blur, cuz i would either pass out or detach completely.
and that helped me to fall asleep.
but i feel so disqusted.... with myself.
so disgusted at myself that so much physical and emotional pain could be so comforting....