[krinkle1973]

Hi everyone. I had six months of sobriety two and a half years ago. Been off for a horrific two and a half years. Lost lots and got in trouble with the law. Picked up this thought that meetings wouldn't help. Last Monday was my last drink. I went to an AA and an Na meeting today. Omg, they all told my story. I cried so bad I think I made an *** of myself. Going to Smart recovery tommorow( I've never been). If I like it will go to all three. Can't wait to heal this broken life.
I'M AFRAID I will lose my steam as I suffer from major depression. I never want to use again but I'm so afraid I will fail. I'm already facing jail time because I was in a blackout and committed a felony and woke up in jail last December and didn't even know why I was there. My lawyer thinks she can get it down to a mistermina, because I didn't hurt anyone, I didn't know what was going on, and I have no record. The lowest I can go is drinking and driving and killing someone.
Thanks everyone

Krinkle, (((hugs))) you hang in there. Do rehab if you can go to it, and go to the meetings. That is your lifeline because i will tell you something There is more love in an AA meeting than there is in most churches cause people don't judge you there. And we don't here either. You can do this and i have faith in you. Remember you are not alone... tc and blessings! I am proud of you! Yes you for posting this!