[RizzDizzMatizz]

I'm not ready to surrender, but am afraid of the consequences of active drug/alcohol use. What do you suggest?

[Skeezyks]

Well... I wasn't sure what you meant when you wrote you're not ready to surrender. Does that mean you're not ready to give up the drugs & alcohol yet? If so, then there's probably not much of anything anyone can do for you at this point.

I just read another of your posts where you wrote that you cut yourself for the first time in two years. To me this would seem to be a sign you need help. But I know how it is... I've been there. (To a large extent I guess I'd have to admit I'm still there.)

I don't know if you're seeing a therapist, or participating in any kind of drug & alcohol treatment. But sooner or later, assuming you're not already doing so, you're going to have to reach out, in real life, for the help you need. I offer my best wishes with the hope that you might find the strength to do so.

[rainbow in the dark]

I tried quitting numerous times on my own with little success. The only reason I did stop was when I went to AA meetings. My first year I went to a meeting almost daily.Do you want to quit drinking or moderate? I would suggest trying a few meetings and see if you think it would help. Take care.

[madisgram]

I was told if I wasn't ready, to go out and do more "research".
In your case you may be sitting on the fence about your drinking. You've got nothing to lose by trying AA. It worked for me tho at first I struggled. What I learned tho was once I surrendered I was set free. Free from not liking myself, free from the bondage of having to drink to be "normal", free of the negative consequences my drinking created.
Some of us struggle at first. Alcohol has become our "best friend". Just keep trying to "put the plug in the jug". Don't give up. You will be glad you didn't. I wish you well. Being sober is the greatest gift I've ever given myself and also to my loving son.