It hurts so much and it's never going to stop and I want it to stop. I want to breathe freely for once and I want it to end and I just want to get away and I want someone to be able to help me but they can't. Meds don't help talking doesn't help therapy doesn't help ECT doesn't help and because I'm immortal even death won't save me and it just hurts so so much.. help

[Sad eyed lady]

I just joined this group today and this is my very first post. I have been crying all day and hurting so bad. I am on meds, in therapy and still feel hopeless. I even tried to sit outside a while today and talk to my dearest partner who died three years ago which sometimes helps. Today it didn't. I started reading a book called darkness visible which was only the first chapter so I ordered the book used. I cannot do anything when this darkness gets at its worst. So painful even my closest friends and children cannot understand me. They say oh you will get over it etc but it has been with me for years. No one except someone suffering this illness can even comprehend the torture and hell it brings. It hurst so bad I know. I try and figure out where it comes from and what I did to get like this? Feel free to write back if you want, hugs sad eyed lady

[gayleggg]

(((((((Breadfish))))))))

Please don't give up. Just when I was ready to end it all, they finally tried a medication change that worked. It's never hopeless, but I know it really hurts.

oh, it does hurt so much. i know. nobody can understand the torturous agony of severe depression unless they have experienced it themselves.

but it is so much better than that dark option. stay with us. nothing lasts forever and things do get easier with time, patience and determination.

I'm so sorry. I know the feeling.

[komet68]

Originally Posted by Breadfish

It hurts so much and it's never going to stop and I want it to stop. I want to breathe freely for once and I want it to end and I just want to get away and I want someone to be able to help me but they can't. Meds don't help talking doesn't help therapy doesn't help ECT doesn't help and because I'm immortal even death won't save me and it just hurts so so much.. help

I found this on Youtube, maybe it will help. I understand what it feels like to be in pain and no one will help. I even called Hospice trying to find someone who would help me. I don't know if your pain is physical or mental, mine is physical and it makes me mental. Dang DEA took some of the drugs away in 2013. Thinking of you. I tried to post a link but am new so it is not allowed. Go to youtube and type in, Why do chronic pain patients

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kill

themselves? There is a good video and a Great comment.

[Fuzzybear]

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