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Originally Posted by Inkie
I feel your pain....I think about it every day of my life. I am a 64 year old woman who has suffered about 54 years of my life. I have to say I have a complete plan on doing it....but really do not want to. Have taken most of the medications, been in therapy..nothing takes the pain away. I have 2 cats (no friends or family) .I do not want to leave them....that is saving me for now. I have had a miserable life and death can only bring me peace. Came here..hoping that I can share and listen to people...which I can not do in my life You are not alone...always remember that...remember the people in your life....and feel lucky to have them and talk to them....talk to them...
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thank you for writing to me. I'm sorry that you can relate to what I've written. I also have 2 cats and sometimes looking at their faces is the only thing that holds my feet on this earth.
As far as "people in my life" I have scant few and feel as though I burden them too much with my sorry state of affairs. I try not to but it is so very lonesome spending the bulk of my time by myself and/or pretending everything's hunky-dorry when inside I'm a ghost. When I get around these 2 people - TWO PEOPLE in a WHOLE LIFETIME (pathetic, pathetic)- I talk about myself and my struggles and then feel guilty about always being a "downer" around them. If for no other reason than this, I need a therapist; so I don't torture these 2 wonderful people.