Year after year, it is progressively getting worse...

... and I'm starting to realize that it is not a fight for recovery but it is a fight for retaining the few remaining functionality.

Is your depression stable?

I wouldn't say my depression is stable. It seems like every year it makes me less motivated and functional. My state fluctuates with the seasons, but never seems to return to the same level as before.

You're all strong..

im finding my level of function in many ways deteriorates the longer my depression goes on, if only that I'm just tired from fighting to keep going.

Thank you for this thread. I opened it because I could so relate to the title. Same here - year after year, progressively getting worse. I continue to lose function. It terrifies me to write that. I am so low-functioning now - I would be ashamed to describe it.

I need to try something that works for me. I hate feeling so depressed all the time. It's an awful feeling. If this keeps up I'm going to loose everyone. I love my family but I can understand how they feel. They don't understand depression or how a person could feel so worthless. I get it because I was never depressed until I was in my 30's. It could be a lot of things. The pressure of having children, hormones, marriage, everything. It never stops. Now I'm going through empty nest syndrome and I feel I have no purpose anymore.