[mauveskies]

I think I like a guy, but I'm not sure. I am really attracted to him and have the urge to get physical with him but I am not looking for anything physical right now, so I am kinda afraid to be in an intimate setting with him. I also enjoy hanging out with him. We have been on three dates. I have told him that I just wanted to be friends because I felt like I didn't feel a major emotional connection with him...Yesterday I felt like I liked him, but tonight I feel like I don't. I keep changing my mind. i think i am just desperate for someone and that i am thinking he will be better than nothing but really he's not right for me....which sucks. I think i am waiting for him to open up or something, or maybe i am just wanting him to be a different person than he really is. I'm pretty sure he just wants to do me tho. I am so sick of guys only wanting that...and me working at a gas station, living with my parents, and not wanting to be susie homemaker makes me feel like that is all i have to give and i am not even good in bed! ugh! Maybe getting physical would be good for me since i havent had a boyfriend or got erm laid in over a year. but i just dont want that. im just not sure what to do.

[cutebagaddict08]

It sounds like in a way you are hoping that if you do have physical relationship with him, that will bring you the emotional connect you want. Which I think alot of us, women, hope and want when we connect physically with our partner. Which would be awesome if it always happened that way, and no one ever got hurt in the end.
If the emotional connection is important to you at this point, then I think you need to ask yourself how hurt will you be if you are physical with this guy and you don't get the emotional responce back you want?
Is it possible to connect with this guy as a friend at first?

[mauveskies]

hmm. well i guess i am just going to play it by ear. thanks for your insight. :-D