I need help with friends

The last few days have been really hard for me. I have been pretty depressed since Sunday. I blame hormones. But, anyway my best friend and my other friend started poking fun at me like always (we always poke fun at each other)and I tried to hint to them that I didn't like it, but they didnt get the message. I started getting angry. (I never get angry) So I went home later that day feeling extremely upset. I decided that if it continued the next day I would say something more. The next day came around and it continued. While at home, I felt like utter crap. I felt like I just wanted to sleep to get rid of the pain. I also had a quick consideration of cutting. No I do not cut nor have I ever, or ever will. So anyway I texted my best friend asking her to lay off of me because it was making me sad for some horrible reason, and then I became stupid. Ugh, I wish I had an undo button. I told her about my mini urge to cut. She freaked out and told my two other friends and they spent the hour telling me that they loved me. Today at school I knew it would be awkward. My best friend wasnt really talking to me. I knew she was upset and that hurts me so bad. She didnt really talk to me. She seemed to be treating me as that person you know but really only say hi too. It hurts. I see her hanging with my friend treating her like we used to do. I feel neglected. The time that I need her the most she leaves. Is that just her way of dealing with it? By the way I don't feel depressed now. Is our friendship over? Should I talk to her? I need help. Also, I have adhd and depression runs in my family.

I'm sorry to hear that things have been so hard for you at the moment. Unfortunately a lot of people don't know how to react when they hear something like that. A lot of people think it is better to say nothing than say the wrong thing - they don't usually realise how that can hurt even more.

I really would suggest trying to talk to her if you can. Explain where you were coming from and what you need from her. There may be a very good chance she isn't sure what to do now or what you need. I would suggest that you ask if you can talk about what happened and arrange a time where you can both sit quietly and calmly and talk things over.

Also, if you don't feel that you can talk to her could you write to her? Sometimes that is easier for both parties - it gives you both time to think about what has happened and understand the perspectives before sitting together talk about it.

Again, I'm sorry it is so hard I have had friends react in a similar way. Sometimes it has meant that they cannot cope and it can impact the friendship but it could also be a misunderstanding. Personally, I also believe that it is better to know than sit with the awkwardness of not knowing what is happening.

i'm sorry you feel so bad about your situation.

two things for you to think about:

isn't it great that you have friends who would spend an hour telling you they love you? surely that is the foundation for putting this right?

also, although you say you would never cut yourself, maybe the forum to try for advice on controlling urges like that is the self injury group.

hope you feel better soon.

Talk to her... she would definitely understand your view point.