[ihrig47]

I am long time survivor. Some of us are in it,some are ready to leave and are very scared. Some are survivors for years. Plagued by memories still afraid at times and suffer triggers that make you feel as if you are back in the moment. Without the understanding PTSD is a very uncomfortable side effect that continues, even if we are now thriving. I have learned so much about what caused these surreal situations in my life. Society as a whole has absolutely no understanding of our plight. We are judged, demeaned called stupid, maybe we like it? I have heard it all. I remember the shame and embarrassment that went with all my situations. The craziness of even trying to protect my abuser(s) from anyone judging, disliking him or arresting him. At times I made those choices because I was fully aware of the consequences I was going to face. Other times I mistook it for my deep and profound love for that person. I would like to help anyone reaching out. I am non judgmental. Would never tell anyone what to do~! I have insight and understanding I really want to share.

[gayleggg]

You offer of help for survivors of abuse is greatly appreciated. Thank you for offering to help.

[healingme4me]

Hi, fellow survivor!

Have you also, reached out here, in PC on the Survivors of Abuse Forum or the Relationships and Communications one? Those are some good forums, for lending a shoulder and wisdom

[Silent_Tears_17]

I just turned 18. My family is a mess and my teen years were filled with emotional and verbal abuse from parents and siblings - and abusive bf at 15, and another sexual abuse experience at 17. I have random memories of CSA, but not so sure how or when or who. I feel alone. The pain dosnt want to stop. The meds were helping for a while but now theyre not. I refuse to date. I tried to date just that once, and never again. Men scare me most of the time, but I trust no one - gender irrelevant. I feel so tired, hurt, isolated, and scared. I dont even want my brain to think of so many of these things, never mind remember them, accept them.... and then of course I try to sleep so I dont have to think and then I have nightmares.

[ladytiger]

my childhood wasn't fun at all nothing but emotional abuse even today at age 27 and living in the abuse. i was sexually abused at 17 i guess if u wanna call it that. a guy i met offline didnt know i was a "virgin" he never asked me and blamed me for not telling him i said maybe u should have asked. the guys i met in high school offline made me do things sexually that i didn't wanna do but had no say so because i didnt have a car so i did it so i can get a ride home.

my family is all dysfunctional not my sister and brother a half sister is dysfunctional from sexual abuse from my dad who is not her real dad. i see a therapist big deal sometimes she makes sense other times its like wtf? i know more than her but some things have progressed not to where i want it to be...

[Citrine]

Its kinda wierd this thread has been started as within the last week a situation has began that reminds me of my childhood. Its not welcome. A 70+ yr old man acts a little inappropriately around me and he is 30+ yrs younger than me, childless and recently divorced. He thinks hes cool, smooth and younger than he is. Though Im a grown woman I feel a little creeped out by him. He stands too close and doesnt move out of my way as he should re normal physical boundaries. I have become defensive and agitated by him and dread him appearing. I was messed about with as a child by 3 older men and though Im fine now 99% this behaviour is stirring bad memories. An older man hanging around me watching me as I work and not taking my silence and huge slides away from him as a beepin hint to get the hell outta my personal space is making me sickly. Cod! Im piggin annoyed actually