[Smileonmyface]

i didn't really know where to put this but here goes. yesterday i gave myself a buzz cut with the #7 attachment on my husband's electric hair cutter. i don't even know why, other than i am mentally exhausted from obsessing over my hair and i just wanted to maybe shock myself into stopping once and for all.

yesterday i went back and forth loving it and hating it and wearing a knit hat. i was nervous about my husband seeing it. i didn't think he would like it, but he thought my pixie cut was okay so I didn't know how far I could go. When he got home from work and I took off my hat his reaction was "oh my God" so I put the hat on and haven't taken it off since.

I really hope i can leave it alone now. I love wearing the hat it makes me feel calmer. if i have a hat on anyway maybe i can forget about my hair and it will grow since it is under a hat anyway.

i am so sick of writing/thinking/talking about my hair. this has been going on for almost a year now. have therapy this afternoon and hope maybe she can help me put this in perspective and stop it. there are so many better ways i can use the energy.

i'm sure no one wants to hear about it anymore anyway, most of all me. my plan is to keep it covered with a hat like i keep my feet in socks all the time and hopefully one day i will manage to think of it no more than i would my foot lol. wash it in the shower and then back to covering it up.

wasn't even gonna talk about it here. but i don't like keeping secrets here on pc i write about just about everything might as well this. maybe other women can relate, maybe not. that is my story.

[Focus62]

I've actually always wanted to buzz my hair down...just because I have a curiosity about how bumpy my skull is, and I sorta think I might pull it off, haha. I haven't done it yet, instead I keep my hair in a very short pixie...I have a rather androgynous look about me but I have never felt more like "me" since I got this haircut. I had long hair for so long, but never liked it. It didn't feel right, it didn't look right to me, I pulled it back into a pony tail *every day* because I hated dealing with it...so I'm glad I chopped it, finally.

I hope you're able to stop obsessing about it and that lower maintenance hair will allow you to focus on other things . It takes confidence to cut your hair short as a woman - don't sell yourself short.

[gayleggg]

When I had to go through chemo and my hair started to fall out, I just shaved the rest of it off. I wore scarves and hats, but was liberated from being a slave to fixing it. I learned that I'm not my hair and it doesn't really matter whether you have hair or not. I'm sure it is cute no matter what you do with it. Buzz cuts are in style.

[Smileonmyface]

thank you both for the replies they were really helpful in making me feel less alone and in my head and to put it in perspective. washed it last night and it feels softer and a little spikey today which i like. wore a hat to go out but otherwise keeping it off. if my marriage depends on the length of my hair i guess that says a lot. but i think my fears about that are mainly in my head.

[Artchic528]

If your husband truly loves you, then having or not having a lot of hair shouldn't even be a subject of debate. He loves you, not your hair, right? Give him a bit of time to let him digest the new look and adjust to it. I imagine it's a little bit of a shock to him. The equivalent would be if he had a beard and one day decided to shave it all off and you came home to him clean shaven for the first time since you two met, or something like that. He's just getting used to it is all, I assume. He'll come around if he truly loves you, like I said.

I was shocked when my 58 year old mother went and got a tattoo and it took me about an hour or two to fully adjust to it. Now I absolutely love her tattoo and am constantly thinking if I want to go out and get one and what I would have a tattoo of!

[Patagonia]

I have my hair buzzed w/a #1 all around except for a 4" wide swatch of hair I have in the front that falls over my eyes.
I LOVE IT!
Don't have to do a darn thing to it & I do wear a lot of knit hats too. At the gym I can put it in a pony.

Sometimes I get compliments on it but have to say it all comes from the 20yo group Bec I'm in my mid 40's.

If shaving it down helps then so be it. Plus you'll be cool in the summer!