daily check in for women

I feel a little stressed and upset today. But I'm relaxing to try to feel better.

@happycheeks Sorry to hear you are feeling sad.

@Deilla Sorry to hear that. I hope you are able to relax

Last night I was hyper but then I wore myself out and went to bed early. Then I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't go back to sleep. Hopefully my energy levels will be back to normal soon.

I had quite a traumatic weekend with triggers and thoughts (suicidal and other stuff), but today I am just trying to focus on christmas and the planning (this afternoon I am going to put up my tree, and use that as a distraction)

plus: I am listening to christmas music. anything to try not to think about stuff.

Sorry you had a tough weekend. It's good you're working on getting in the Christmas spirit. I hope it helps you to feel better.

@raging vortex Sorry to hear you are struggling. I hope Christmas festivities cheer you up. I've been listening to Christmas music too.

I had flashbacks earlier today. I am feeling alright now.

I'm doing fairly well. I slept most of yesterday and this morning I feel well-rested.

I was panicky last night. Also, I went to bed early and was up in the middle of the night but finally managed to get back to sleep. So my sleep schedule is still off but oh well.

I didn't sleep at all last night, but at least I had some friends on this forum to keep me company. I finally got some sleep this morning, so even though I'm not feeling 100% I'm feeling better!

I'm a little sad today. I didn't feel well enough to celebrate Thanksgiving with my family. I feel bad about that.

There have been times when I didn't celebrate holidays with my family because I just didn't feel able to, emotionally or mentally. (As a rule, all holidays are difficult for me!) Take my 50th birthday this year for example! I just said that I wouldn't be celebrating it. My Dad seemed to have a pained look on his face when I told him that, and it hurts me to think about it, but I wasn't able to do it even though I wanted to for his sake. If our illnesses were visible, like a broken leg, it would be easier for people to understand where we are coming from. Group hug to include everyone on this site supporting you!

@Return To Sender thank you! I did talk with my mom after her celebration to hear how it went. I let her know I was happy she had a good time. I'm not sure if she understood how I felt. But I will try to make it up to her soon.

My hot flashes seem to be increasing again even though I'm back down to 2.5 mg Abilify which I was on for a month. (The Abilify seemed to really help with the hot flashes.) I did sleep last night, but every time I would start to fall asleep, I would be woken up by a hot flash. It was upsetting and I got angry, and then it's harder to fall asleep again! *Sigh* At least they weren't full of anxiety like they used to be before I got on Abilify. The only problem is that I'm probably getting off it next week and getting on Lithium. We'll see...

unfortunately, I had to deal with my mother's abuse by email again yesterday.

I ignored it, (as in didn't reply), yet it was still hurtfull

a positive part of yesterday is that I got to have takeout.

I had chips and sausages, though the sausages were very filling. I didn't expect them to be that filling

*In my last post I went on about Abilify and my hot flashes. I just want to clarify that I don't take it to help with hot flashes, I take it for Bipolar Disorder. (The help with the hot flashes was just a bonus.) I'm mentioning this because someone asked me about it in another thread where I mentioned it, and I'm glad she did because now that I read my post, it seems that way!

I'm doing alright today. Maybe a little depressed and stressed out. Just trying to relax now.

Doing ok. Trying to get the motivation to go to the gym

I'm very tired today. Otherwise I'm doing alright.

I'm in a good mood, despite the fact that I'm tired and need a good night's sleep.

swinging by quickly to say " hi!"

I have a lot of emails today so trying to split my time between those and this site.

my email inbox is currently telling me I have 770 emails

that's a lot

hope everyone is having a good day.

no plans today- just listen to christmas music

I'm so glad that I'll be seeing my PsychPA tomorrow at 2:00pm. She is going to get me off Abilify and probably put me on Lithium. Even though Lithium is a little different than just taking a pill,
(bloodwork is needed to make sure the levels are ok), I am desparate for help so I am welcoming it eagerly. I can't wait!!! I feel like help is on the way, so hang in there! I hope you all have a good day!
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I'm doing Okay. I could use some more sleep. But right now I want to play some games.

I also could use some sleep, but I want to play games too! Hehe! I was miserable a half an hour ago, but I got a kind message from a friend and was cheered right up!

I forgot to mention that I'm going to try and quit smoking on Friday. I contacted the smoking cessation program for my state, answered some questions, spoke to a quit coach, and they are sending me a Quit Guide, free nicotine gum to quit with, and they are going to call me and check on my quit. I'm really looking forward to receiving the things in the mail that they are sending me!