[fear]

Can't keep a job, I move from job to job and the latest one I was told to leave. My boss has been having a hard time at work and at home. She blew up at me one other time and sent another co worker home, That co-worker was devastated and thought she lost her job.

Later on my boss confided in me and apologized and said that some of my doings at work remind her of her husband (she reminded me often that I and her husband are Geminis and are alot alike) and she could not tolerate it at home or at work..............

I talked to the co-work later that day and assured her she done nothing wrong and it was all on me.

Less than 2 weeks go bye she tells me to leave, I apparently had an attitude. I said "WHAT?!!" My co-worker asked what was going on, and explained to her I did nothin wrong.

I just then left with my things. I come home and just lost it, afraid what my husband is gonna say and/or do. Like I thought, he come unglued piss n moaned, blamed me for financial things and cant keep a job..

I just went to bed, he did come in to say he felt bad and he should be supporting me. HA! That lasted about a half a day.

I just felt like why live , why be here, why do I have this pain, why? He asked me why I am not strong anymore, he even called my mom to complain about me and even called my boss. He dont trust me, This is just a small small issue. I have hit the bottom and feel there is nowhere to go. I want to run away and hide from everyone. I wanna be homeless and not live in this pain. I dont know who I am, I dont know what I want I dont know what to do. There is a wall everywhere.

[pegasus]

Hello fear, it's very easy to blame ourselves but you know it looks like that particular boss was way out of order anyway! And it's doubly hard if you are not getting the support at home either. Hugs to you and welcome to Psych Central!

[fear]

the last 6 jobs were all very similar, I am attracted to negative things, I need to learn how to change it. I even read thebook secret. I fear my future

[kaliope]

Hi fear
Welcome to Psych Central. Life sure seems overwhelming right now. We have several forums you could be posting in like Coping with Emotions and Relationships and Communication. You will get lots of feedback and support here. Again, welcome.

[Travelinglady]

Hello, fear! Welcome to Psych Central! I also suggest you consider posting in the Work and Careers forum here.

[shezbut]

Hello fear,

Welcome to Psych Central! I am sorry that you feel as though you are stuck in a pattern of negative job relationships. I can relate to that fear myself. I've only had one or two jobs in my lifetime where I felt okay in my abilities to do my job and get along with co-workers. Pretty miserable!

Just a little FYI, forum moderators must approve all new members first five posts before posts begin to show immediately after "enter". At that point, that's when member groups and the chat rooms will open to new members.

The following is a list of forum links for you to check out sometime. Hope to see you around soon! Gentle hugs and best wishes to you.

Relationships & Communication - Forums at Psych Central

Coping with Emotions - Forums at Psych Central

The Sanity Score - Forums at Psych Central

Work and Careers - Forums at Psych Central

Self-Help Ideas and Goal Setting - Forums at Psych Central

Steps to Better Self-Esteem - Forums at Psych Central

Women-Focused Support - Forums at Psych Central