[Grey Matter]

I have been out of work for two years now. And it's driving me (more) insane. I worked retail for four years, did amazing, and had to leave to go into IP treatment for four months. After that I did a temp holiday retail job, and then after that, Nothing. I applied to be a live-in nanny as I have child-care experience. I went to the interview, I actually SPOKE and presented myself well verbally, which never happens. And I had to wait and wait and wait to hear if I got it or didn't.

Found out tonight, after two weeks of feeling at least semi-confident that I got it, that I did not get it. And I feel damn awful about it.

I am nearly 23. I don't have a job. My sister some how manages to get at least one interview a week (in places we've BOTH applied) even though she has a job right now. I have a diploma. I have experience. I. Don't. Get. It.

I hate myself for it. I feel stupid and weak. I walked in on my mom and sister talking and of course caught my mom saying "They need to get a ****** job" and then she looked at me and didn't even apologize. Everyone is acting like I am not trying. I have 47 active job applications out. I do at least two a day. I walk around, trying to find anything. And no one wants me.

And now, that I might have lupus, how am I ever going to even hold a job? I am damn useless. Even my mom, who constantly supports me, is believing to think so too. This is all too much stress and I feel ill.

[gayleggg]

My heart goes out to you. I have nothing that would answer your question as to why, but just wanted to let you know that I feel for you. Sorry your mother is losing faith in you. I know that must really hurt. Hang in there and keep trying.
Gayle

[Gus1234U]

Well Done for all your hard work... looking for work is much harder than actually working, i think,,, you deserve more support and encouragement... people can tell when you are fragile and depressed,,, the best thing for you is a little vacation~! best wishes.... Gus

[redbandit]

I know how you feel. I'm in the same position pretty much. Idk y its harder to find a job since I graduated, I guess I'm overqualified for stuff, under qualified for others. Nobody is hiring in PR (my degree) I normally can find a job pretty quick, maybe a crappy job, but still a job. I'm getting pretty frustrated myself. Just know you aren't the only one

I read a news report recently that companies are more inclined to hire applicants who are currently employed. Makes it tougher. Hearing about your sister makes me tend to believe that companies are doing that. Try not to let it get you down anymore than it has. Good luck!

I'm sorry it didn't work out and I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you that you will find a nice family/kids who are a great fit for you.