[bird_lover]

Hi, I just got a brand-new job. I am thrilled, I really am. However, I am getting depressed. After my schizo-misdiagnosis, I was super happy. It is wearing off. I am having liver problems. Not sure what it is quite yet. I am in constant pain. It is getting worse. When I got the job, I thought it would go away, I thought, hey, I can handle this. I am finally using my fine arts degree. My boss is putting a lot of pressure on me to learn new skills by the beginning of December, as a young girl is leaving because she is pregnant. The customers call him and tell him he has to do everything he can to keep me, that is why they will keep shopping there. I love my job. I had to call off today because of the pain. My former psychiatrist had me on too many strong psych drugs when they were not working anyway and now my liver specialist thinks I may have liver damage from the psych meds, but that is yet to be determined. I am upset that I have so much on my shoulders with my new job. If I had known I was going to be in so much pain, I would have not accepted the job offer. I do not want to have to explain to my new boss about my past and what is going on now. It makes me mad. I am seeing a therapist starting this Monday, I have 2 days yet. I act happy at work, I put on a smile even when my body aches and I just want to sit down and not move. I cannot say what is wrong, I cannot tell people about what I have gone through in life. I work only under 20 hours a week. I do not want to quit, I just started 3 weeks ago, and as I said, I am FINALLY using my fine arts degree, which I never thought I would use. Has anyone else been down this path sort-of, kind-of, ever before??? Can anyone relate or say something to encourage me? I just need a nice word right now. Or soon. I have to go into work tomorrow and be happy to be there, which I will...but starting December 3, I work all by myself and I am still not good at what I will be doing, I get confused, and no one else in the store knows how to do my job.....I am afraid I will start crying.

[Travelinglady]

Oh, dear. First of all, congrats on your new job! What comes first to my mind is if there are any pain meds you can take that will at least make your pain manageable. Of course, meds like Tylenol can also damage the liver. I would certainly talk to your doctor about your situation. I hope you will feel better and be able to keep this job, dear one!

[bird_lover]

Thank you. I ended up in the Hershey ER with the pain so bad. The only thing I can take for pain with my liver in such distress is oxycodone. It scares me sooooo bad. My grandma had pancreatic cancer and took it and killed herself (she had depression). It helps, but when I take it, I cannot function for at least 12 full hours. I went to work today, I took about 10 tests, some of which I had to retake many times. The girl I am supposed to replace is apparently not leaving when she wanted to after all, so I am breathing a sigh of relief. The general manager scheduled her twice as many hours, demanded she not use her cell phone at work (I reported abuse of her cell when she was on the clock), and today she was screaming at the manager in the break room, which I heard my name, so I know I am partly to blame. Thank you, though, I really did need those kind words of encouragement. It helped. It really did.

[gayleggg]

Congratulations on the new job. I'm sure you are doing a great job even with the pain. I'm so sorry you are having trouble with your liver, especially since it causes pain. I hope they help you with that soon.

[bird_lover]

My job is going exceptionally well. I am not in the copy and print center (I work in an office supply store), but instead am learning manager skills and have been taking tests (which I pass the first time, every time). I asked my manager why and he did not really answer. I kinda think I know why....lol. He posted signs in the breakroom that there is a position open for a supervisor, starting in January, however, I just started 3 weeks ago. It is the hours I asked for when I was hired. No one asked me yet about it, but the 2 managers have both been telling me that I will need to know how to do the manager skills I am learning. I do not ask, I just do the work and I am happy with it. My manager tells me no one learns this quick. No one makes big sales like this, only him. He says he is impressed. I tell him this is easy, piece of cake. I just talk people into bigger purchases. Simple. I love my job. The pain is still there. It has gotten better. I am wondering...should I ask about the position, let the managers know that I am interested??? I do not want to be pushy. I just want to let them know, hey, I am interested. If you think I could do it, if you think you could teach me that quick, I am willing to learn, to put out that effort. If not, at least I tried and then they can put me back over in the copy and print center where I was hired for. I dunno....anyone have any thoughts now that I have said what is going on since my first post on my new job????? I don't want to take on too much........