[winterglen]

That is the question that will be reigning every thought in my head for the next week, when my boss returns from vacation.

I was told if I missed one more important session at work, I'd have to be let go. So what do I do this week? I miss an important session at work. I didn't mean to, just like I hadn't meant to the other times. But I've been warned.

Maybe my boss won't find out. Maybe I can fudge the data, make it look like I was signed in later this week, and show up then. If I get caught though, I'm fired, and it will look much worse because I will have shown I was dishonest about it.

I probably will get caught anyway. I'm not smart, and the new administration is really keeping an eye on shenanigans.

I knew I would screw up sooner or later. I knew it was only a matter of time until I get myself fired. I will probably cry and whine about it, because that's how I handle all my problems. I cry and whine and beg for mercy, hoping that I will sound completely repentant over my mistakes, but instead I just sound childish and weak.

I either get fired for slacking off or I get fired for being conniving and dishonest. Both are injurious to any future jobs I might have.

I am so embarrassed about the person I have become. I am a stupid ***** who is getting exactly what she deserves.

Since you're so concerned you obviously don't deserve any of these harsh words Even though you've thought of the dishonest route a person who was so much less moral wouldn't care at all yet even then that wouldn't make them so terrible.

Would you try being truthful as to why you didn't go to the session anyways? Your boss should be able to see that honesty triumphs being dishonest, considering this is the workplace after all - some actually respect this when they recognize it. I can understand if the situation isn't as simple as I'm making it to be either, considering I don't know the whole story.