Temp to Perm...or assignment over and unemployed?

My position was "eliminated" at my last job where I was bullied by the boss and went into severe depression, resulting in some time off, followed by administrative time off, beforehand. By the grace of God, a temp agency called with a wonderful 3-month temp assignment, where I'd interviewed twice and started the week after I was laid off.

An opportunity to work in this company's sales department didn't come through, but this position has opened as the women who'd held it isn't coming back for health reasons. I've applied and, while I know this manager has to entertain all applicants, I think this is the week where I will learn my fate - the job offer or two-week notice that my services are no longer needed?

While I desperately want/need this job, I'm so afraid they will discover that I suffer from depression. I'm so afraid of the depression I may fall into should I not get the offer. I'm afraid of the rejection, and embarrassment and plummeting self-esteem and sense of worthlessness, and that I won't handle it with grace.

On the eve of going to back to work tomorrow morning, I'm anxious. Any words of wisdom appreciated.

Dear Pam,

I understand your concern and most of us face these situations in our careers. I think that taking the stress of keeping the job just adds to the pressure and it can affect your potential to perform well on the job. So, no matter how hard it may seem, you have to keep your nerves calm and don't let these things grow on you. People will always have opinions about you, whether you agree with these or not; whether you like these or not. So I would suggest that you should not take these to heart. These challenges are part of your professional growth and progress. I am sure with passage of time, you will be able to overcome these challenges. Be easy on yourself and you should not let the things that are beyond your control, impact your personal well-being because you need to keep the energy to fight their consequences.

All the best and que sera, sera!

If someone brings your depression up, then just say your work environment was really toxic and because you cared so much about doing a good job, you took it too much to heart and became depressed.

Maybe something like that anyway!