[emic888]

hello. it is good to know i am now alone. share a compressed version of my story here. do you have similar experience or advice?

i was working for 10 years in 1 job after graduation. though the demands were high and very stressful, it paid reasonably well and i loved the job itself. this all changed when my subordinate started to defame me and my boss actually believed her. my boss started to bully me at work (constant criticism,daily yelling ,humiliating me in front of all my co-workers, underminding my competence, intimidating me , threaten to change me to another department without any solid reason....)boss even asked me to do illegal and immoral things, which when i refused made him hate me even more.i started to burnout,developing insomnia, eating too much, nausea, dizzy, chest pain, cannot breath, panic attacks, constantly at the verge of tears,memory lost....i lost trust in humans and lost interest in living.i was diagnosed with major depression and put on antidepression. it got so bad i resigned before getting a new job .

after 9 months jobless, i felt better and went into a low paying job in a completely different industry . after 2 years in it, i found i loved this job. i started applying for better positions in this new industry, went for several interviews only to find the pay cut of 35%. this hurt for my family was not understanding in this matter.i start feeling the depression relapse symptoms. i feel stuck and alone without support.wonder should i make the change and how long will i be completely healed and back to me again?

[kaliope]

hi emic
it is hard to tell when you will be back to your old self. it will be sooner if you are doing something you love than if you go back to a stressful job that you do not like. but finacial and family stressors will have an impact on it as well, so you have to find a balance betweent he two. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome

[Keyslost]

Don't give up Emic working word is kind of rough right now. I wouldn't take that pay cut personally (if that's what happened). Are the co-workers decent in the new job? It could take a bit and that's totally okay like Kali said we're here to help

[sideblinded]

So sorry to hear about your struggles with depression and the job problems. If you keep looking, you will get there. It sounds like you really care about being productive and employers will see this. You are not alone.

Glad that you joined us. Welcome to PC. Keep reaching out and I wish you the very best here and in your life.