[Mrs. Mania]

Even at jobs I really liked, I always fizzled out and got fired after 18 months. Almost always....18 months. It's been 13 months and I'm having a hard time surviving. I try to stop myself from saying how much I hate it, but find myself saying it from the time I get in the door until hours after I'm home. I'm too old to continue job hopping and the last time, it took awhile to find a job which led to financial crisis. UGH- Paxil, Lamictal, Seroquel and Trazadone...please save the day

[mcl6136]

Mrs Mania,
I have the opposite problem...stay in dead end jobs that I positively hate for way too long. This one....seven years and I am treated really poorly by my boss and now even my co-workers. The one before that? 17 years.
But the pattern is similar. I start out 'okay' and end up being in a situation where I can barely seem to drive into the parking lot, have major anxiety and it is hard to make it through the day. Each day is a monumental struggle and by the end of the week, I'm simply amazed that I accomplished - making it through another week.
I hate my job and it has become a preoccupation, not an occupation.

[Mrs. Mania]

Counting down the hours to work. Another symptom of impending termination. If I can recognize the pattern, why can't I stop it

[Mrs. Mania]

I called in

[Little Lulu]

Beating myself up has never helped me. You've had some sort of trigger recently that has led to the reason you called in. Maybe identifying that and talking about would be helpful. That and some self-compassion. You keep giving it your best or you wouldn't have a job at all.

[psyco123]

i too have the same issue.. when i join a job, i will be smart active..but later on i start getting scared when i get scolding for any small thing. slowly i become slow in doing everything and feel that somehow the day should pass off. i always feel that i just have a side role and not important to the organisation. trying to quit the job for past three years. want to get out this job.. unable to find anything interesting in this job