[black-roses]

Today, I have been in volunteer work and I've had to confront feelings I didn't know I had. Insecurities that up until now I had never uncovered. I have realised that I have low self esteem related to work as a result of the negative reenforcement at home. I feel like it's a contributing factor to why I have no I idea what to do as a job because I have so many insecurities related to work and if I am actually good enough to have a job. I feel almost blind sided by how insecure I feel about it. The point is if there was an employer asking me why I would be good for this job I'd draw a blank. Also the worst part is when you do have a good quality but then down play it because other people can also communicate well. To be honest I am finding it unhelpful downplaying something I am good at just to make myself feel worse there's no point in doing that because it's not going to lead me anywhere. It will lead me in circles but no where new and exciting and useful for me.

[pumpkinseed]

i also struggle with this. i often think i won't learn quick enough and a myriad of other things.. im starting to realize im self sabotaging and avoiding so many opportunities because of this. for me, like you it stemmed from experiences in childhood. i also struggle with feeling embarrassed and doubt my skills.

[black-roses]

Originally Posted by pumpkinseed

i also struggle with this. i often think i won't learn quick enough and a myriad of other things.. im starting to realize im self sabotaging and avoiding so many opportunities because of this. for me, like you it stemmed from experiences in childhood. i also struggle with feeling embarrassed and doubt my skills.

Yeah, I feel like that too like I am sabotaging myself with all the insecurities and excuses I make. I am not fast even smart enough... blah blah but how can I say that when I never tried in the first place. I am now realizing I need to break my lazy pattern or I am just going to continue to feel lonely and dumber then everyone.

[Trimmer]

Sometimes I fell like I do not deserve to be in the position i am work. I feel like an imposter.

[bluecloud]

First, I want to give you a hug
Second, I want to tell you I can relate to this.
Third, I want to say is don't give up trying. Whenever you're in doubt, re-focus back on your strengths. Identify them and then stop. Don't think anymore. Stay on those thoughts for a moment and remember them. That's what I do when I'm nervous about my skills. I have to make myself believe in them or else I can't confidently express them out.