I'm done

For over a year now I have been unable to work because of a paroxetine reduction of 50% and then reintroduction. The symptoms are all side affects I had before but totally disrupts my everyday life. Big sigh... my first attempt for sdd was denied. My psychiatrist doesn't support my claim. My therapist could see the change but there was some interrogation by her . She wrote a letter to the court for my divorce stating i couldn't work. I really thought eventually I would come back around. Its actually gotten worse some of it is stress related to be in abusive marriage that long also has had it's effects. That one morning waking up to what was like a pack of firecrackers going off in my head has changed who I was to who I am now. After noon I went outside on a pleasant fall day. Trying to do some basic fall yard work was very difficult especially the vertigo, the sweat pouring off my head into my eyes it's 52 deg constantly dropping things bend over kneel down and get up is a struggle I used to squat 505 lbs when I was into power lifting. It takes 2 hrs to get ready if I get out at all. I have to face reality. One thing I always was is a dependable hard worker. I got a lot of self esteem from that.

Hello eyesclosed: I'm sorry you are feelin so... defeated(?) or should I say simply... resigned? As you know, I have Meniere's as well although mine is so much less severe than yours. Still, I do have some small sense of what you're experiencing.

I recall having an ear tube put in my ear for an infection I didn't have. It caused my tinnitus to explode in my head. Had it not been for my pdoc putting me on Klonopin, I'm quite certain I would not be here today. It's one of the primary reasons I still see my pdoc even though I'm no longer on med's. Just the possibility that I could have a recurrence of that awful "freight train running through my head 24 / 7" experience sends shivers up-&-down my spine.

Anyway, I didn't have anything in particular to offer here. I simply wanted to acknowledge your post. I don't know what the status of your SSDI claim is. I know, in the past, it has always been pretty-much an article of faith that the initial application is almost always denied. However, if one gets an attorney & appeals, the appeals are more often successful. At least that has been the way it has been in the past. Of course, having a psychiatrist who doesn't support your claim doesn't help. Perhaps you need a new pdoc? I wish you well...