[continuosly blue]

Any chance I had of building a career in the normal time frame , ( you know , college after high school etc...) was destroyed by many different circumstances.
Ok , the present. Am permanently disabled and can’t do physical work. BUT I could have used my mind , ( like went to school and got multiple degrees, or read 1,000 books ). It’s the psychological damage that caused me to just vegetate for years. I won’t get into details but I think you get the picture.
All my hopes and dreams were taken away. I’m not about remorse or regret anymore though. I feel I’m ready to move on to learning. Thanks to mindfulness
I’ve been able to stay in the present , ( most of the time anyway) ! My concentration level has risen , ( it was at 0 until just recently). Now I just need motivation. My past has beaten me down very hard and I’m very tired.
Just want to quietly whither away. Any tips on how I can get motivated enough to at least be able to have a small hobby ?

[seesaw]

I'm not sure I have any tips, but I understand the feeling of being unmotivated. For me it turned out to be an issue of anxiety, rather than motivation, and once I began to address the anxiety, I began to allow myself to have interest in hobbies, etc.

I guess it depends on what your interested in. I know, in the past, having a group activity used to motivate me to go. Like I do a group guitar lesson, and I am motivated to go because I know people in the group now. I joined a hockey league at one point, and was motivated to go because my team depended on me.

Maybe you could join a book club or sewing club or whatever club to give you motivation to go?

Seesaw

[hvert]

I love to read, so I'd probably start by finding a book that looked interesting... or maybe start reading an article online about something I always wondered about.

[Little Lulu]

I have found that motivation comes after the doing, not before, especially when one is depressed or anxious. I have to make myself try some things and if I find something I enjoy, then the motivation is there to continue.

So, the hard part is going ahead and trying something, even if you aren't "feeling it". Start with an activity you think you have at least some interest in. If you give it a good shot and are still not enjoying it, give yourself permission to move on to something else. Eventually you'll land on something that is right for you.