[128J]

I am having an extremely hard time writing this in a short post
When I was young I was extensively energetic and I still am, I excel in a workplace and have in every job I have had. The only issue is I feel a wall of sorts when I want to do things like commit to scheduled labor or hangout with people(Of course there are plenty of other applicable situations I see daily involved in my sub-minds lack of desire to participate). I have worked four jobs and been self employed after dropping out of the 12th grade(which supported me for about a year and took place between my first and last two jobs.) Am I lazy? for my lack of employment and social interaction for about a year now?

[Smartygras]

I can relate to you. I've also had lots of jobs in different areas. I'm 58 and still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I don't know about you but, boredom is my worst enemy on the job. The hardest part for me is figuring out what I really want to do. You are still young and, have time to explore options. I don't think it's laziness, more like being insecure about a different environment or relationship. Good luck with your career dreams, whatever they may be.

[Prycejosh1987]

You need to be motivated to work, working is a beautiful part of life. I love to work personally.

[RoxanneToto]

I think it’s something other than laziness, but I’m not sure what - I’ve worked pretty much since I left college, but if I could get a new (better) job tomorrow guaranteed, or win enough money to retire early, I’d be happy. I like my boss and all my colleagues (I don’t take that for granted - I had some absolutely horrible colleagues/boss when I first started) but it’s the job itself that’s my issue. I don’t want to be lazy/unproductive but I’m tired of what I do.