[El-ahrairah]

i just realized it i need it, it makes me bold and brave and confident but I want to be all that sober when I can think for myself.

I don't need alcohol but I know it makes me feel good and then I fight with my bf I don't remember how but he said I make him miserable, I just dont get it.
I'd rather submissive than drunk. I dont wanna be assertive anymore it makes my bf hate me.

i dont know what is wrong with me, i hate myself

Hello, The Bakery. If you do not need alcohol, maybe you should quit drinking? Submissive or drunk are not the only options. Learning to communicate better in a relationship is a joint venture (maybe and adventure too). Perhaps some counseling might be beneficial?

http://www.therapyideas.net/self-hatred.htm
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/***...2/METHOD=print

I doubt there is anything wrong that some guidance and perseverance cannot ameliorate.

Good luck.

[El-ahrairah]

Originally Posted by TheByzantine

Hello, The Bakery. If you do not need alcohol, maybe you should quit drinking? Submissive or drunk are not the only options. Learning to communicate better in a relationship is a joint venture (maybe and adventure too). Perhaps some counseling might be beneficial?

http://www.therapyideas.net/self-hatred.htm
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/***...2/METHOD=print

I doubt there is anything wrong that some guidance and perseverance cannot ameliorate.

Good luck.

thanks Byzan, I've been wanting to take assertiveness classes lately so I can learn to defend myself... I can't even look at alcohol without getting sick I was so trashed the other day and today was hell ;c. I think I'm about done with drinking...

Thanks for the links <33

[jenkins09]

Hi TB,

You know assertiveness doesn't involve being a jerk, it's being able to let others know how you feel and what type of behavior you will accept for yourself.

I doubt highly that your an alcoholic, you do need to find better ways to cope with your problems. I also wanted to say, dont let your boyfriend be the barometer of your worth.

You are a valuable person, with him and without him. If he is unhappy ask him why. The byzantine was right, communication is key. Learning how to really listen to someone else is difficult, but well worth the effort.

Good luck.

[avoice]

The Bakery !!! Just wondering do you get out and go to AA meetings? I'm an addict more so on Drugs been in treatment last year saved my life. I had a year sober feb of this year. I do take meds that my husband gives me they are addictive. I try my best to never go back there.

[El-ahrairah]

Originally Posted by avoice

The Bakery !!! Just wondering do you get out and go to AA meetings? I'm an addict more so on Drugs been in treatment last year saved my life. I had a year sober feb of this year. I do take meds that my husband gives me they are addictive. I try my best to never go back there.

no i think i shoudl tho... its not bad, but i can see myself getting bad ya know? wanna cut the bud before it grows

ty.

[sugahorse1]

Last night for the first time I felt I needed/wanted that other glass of wine even though I'm not supposed to drink on psych meds (And already had had more than 3 glasses of wine). That glass made me sick. I never drink on my own, and my boyfriend made it quite clear he was going to bed.
Wine had never tasted so good (And it was just a random cheap bottle). I don't know why

[El-ahrairah]

Originally Posted by sugahorse

Last night for the first time I felt I needed/wanted that other glass of wine even though I'm not supposed to drink on psych meds (And already had had more than 3 glasses of wine). That glass made me sick. I never drink on my own, and my boyfriend made it quite clear he was going to bed.
Wine had never tasted so good (And it was just a random cheap bottle). I don't know why

I guess sometimes we want more for no reason. I duno. when im sad i want more, i just wanna forget everything and let that alter ego i get when i drink to come out.

[Tatyana2009]

Read the section in 'The Little Prince' about the drunk.

What are you trying to forget? what are you running away from?

[El-ahrairah]

Originally Posted by Tatyana2009

Read the section in 'The Little Prince' about the drunk.

What are you trying to forget? what are you running away from?

whatever is wrong in my life... away from everything I am.

[sugahorse1]

The strange thing is that I cannot even drink much (Prob due the fact that my BMI is prob a bit low, and that I'm on psych meds). I throw up too easily. But I still feel the need to have a drink. Right now I'm not really that concerned that I'm an alcoholic, but every now and again I get frustrated with myself for having a drink when it's not appropriate or necessary.

sugahorse, when you are on psych medications it is never appropriate or necessary.