[LostandLonleySoul]

I am so ashamed of myself. After 17 months I relapsed. I moved back in with my ex-husband. He is a normie. He can have one drink and that is it. I thought that I could live with beer in my fridge everyday and watch him drink and me drink nothing. I was wrong. I knew that I shouldn't drink being prenant and all, but that didn't stop me either. I started going to meetings again, I know that I need to get a sponser, and work the steps.

[BamaSurvivor]

Lost, I've recently went through the guilt and shame of relapse after 10 months of being clean. I didn't relapse with alcohol (which is a big thing for me) but I did relapse using crystal meth. So I know how you must be feeling right now. Please know that shame and guilt on yourself will not make the situation better. Forgiving yourself and starting over WILL make the situation better. If you need to talk, PM me anytime. I know it's hard relapsing, but there is light after dark.

[shadowalker164]

Lost….
Is there a chance that your husband being “normal” and all, could just not keep a sixer in the icebox? Did you ask him to not have alcohol in the house? Did you tell him how you were watching him drinking while you are trying to maintain your sobriety? Does he know the nature of the struggle you are going through?

I understand that our recovery is our responsibility, but the people around us have a very powerful influence on us as well. We are not immune to their influences.

If your husband will meet you half way on this question, good. Not having it in the house shouldn’t be too much of an imposition to a man who can take it or leave it alone. But If you don’t talk to him about what you are trying to do, how is he supposed to know?

Richard

[BamaSurvivor]

That's a VERY good point... If booze isn't that important to him and he can take it or leave it, keeping it out of the house shouldn't be a problem for him. If he doesn't have a problem with alcohol and loves his wife and wants her to get well, he'll do what it takes.

[Kismet]

I agree totally. When I first got sober my social-drinking husband stopped bringing alcohol into the house. Its all about respect IMO--talk to him.

[Raynaadi]

Congratulations on coming here and ratting yourself out. Admitting the mistake is the first step! I totally agree with the others about your husband and his beer. I know I hated to not have beer in the fridge. But then I turned out to be an alcoholic. If he HAS to keep beer in the frigde, are you sure he's a normie? Keep coming back!