[DelusionsDaily]

hey all...i just need to vent. I am getting really stressed and until tonight I hadnt been to a mtg in two weeks...and really had a hard time going almost went home before it started. there is alot going on and i am not coping too well i have counseling today(wednesday) and dont want to go i just want to crawl in bed and stay there for a couple days. I know I cant but thats what i would like to do. any ideas how to get by without giving up completely?

[Leed]

Hi Melissa ~ When i was in the early days of recovery, I wanted to give up too, but something stopped me -- I guess my conscience did. You CAN'T give up -- this is a life or death matter. We're not playing games here. You really don't have a choice.

We can't miss too many meetings either. When we do, we put ourselves in a heap of danger! That's when we start "planning" our relapse. You see a relapse isn't a spur of the moment thing - we actually start subconsciously planning it months before.

The same goes for counseling sessions - if you miss them you're either going to get into trouble or you're going to relapse. Or both. It's just not worth it!

If you're depressed, talk to your doctor. From the sounds of it you might be. There is no HARM in taking an antidepressant. Half of the addicts/alcoholics in the world have to take antidepressants - our chemistry is all screwed up due to "medicating" ourselves for so long. So talk to your doctor and see what he thinks. And remember - take it ONLY AS PRESCRIBED. You could kill yourself if you abuse it. God bless and please take care of yourself. Hugs, Lee

[Christina86]

Originally Posted by MELISSSAD81

hey all...i just need to vent. I am getting really stressed and until tonight I hadnt been to a mtg in two weeks...and really had a hard time going almost went home before it started. there is alot going on and i am not coping too well i have counseling today(wednesday) and dont want to go i just want to crawl in bed and stay there for a couple days. I know I cant but thats what i would like to do. any ideas how to get by without giving up completely?

Did you make it to counselling? Did you make it to a meeting?

You're not giving up, because you're a fighter. You're posting, saying you're having difficulty. Someone who wanted to give up wouldn't really be posting asking for tips about how to not give up. At least that makes sense to me...

Why are you stressed? Do you have anyone to talk to, maybe a sponsor or a friend in the program, or your counsellor/T? What would make you feel better right now that ISNT destructive or giving into your addiction?

[DelusionsDaily]

i talked to my sponsor wed afternoon that was good for me. I went to a meeting tuesday night. I did make it to see T and talked about everything that is stressing me out BIG time. I really just want to get some really good sleep and hopefully that will happen this weekend.

[2009Dutch]

Good for you to talk to your sponsor,and going to a meeting. Yesterdaynight I had my first meeting of this year, and it felt so good and safe.
I hope you will have a nice weekend, with rest, good sleep and be kind to yourself.

[madisgram]

melissa, so many good posts to how u're feeling. no pain, no gain. we need to work thru life with new coping skills. your T, sponsor and AA will give you the tools for this change to happen. there's a saying in AA."when should we go to a meeting? we need to go to a meeting when we want to, we need to go to a meeting when we don't". also set daily goals for yourself and do them regardless of how you don't want to do them. some suggestions: meeting each day if possible, continued therapy. get it all out by talking about how you are feeling and try out the replies here. i call it vomiting the painful stuff out.
your addiction is calling you. think about how far u've come and ignore the other. you can do it like many of us did. i believe in you. you're reaching out.