[trixielou]

when i was just a small child i noticed if i took a cold medicine that mellowed me i loved the feeling i mean early childhood what is that? im now 36 & have been thru the ringer but why so early did i love the feeling of relaxing medications? i want answers

[alias123]

maybe you were a stressed out kiddo? maybe it's that biological part of addiction people talk about.

[Leed]

When I was a kid, and my grandfather would babysit with us, he let me have drinks of his beer -- I would get drunk!! I was only 2 1/2 -- I remember this!!! My Mom would get madder than the daylights -- but I LOVED it. I felt so good!

I liked it because it was relaxing ~ I know even as a child I didn't know HOW to relax. I wasn't diagnosed as hyper - but our household was chaos because my parents always fought. There was always tension in the house. This beer fed a "need" in me. If I'd been allowed, I could have become an alcoholic at 3 yrs old!!
Pretty scarey.

[trixielou]

i just remember feeling so lonely no friends & feeling like i wasnt like others & like i didnt belong i remember feeling this way as far back as i can remember even kindergarten i remember as i got older i overate a lot to self med & then eventually got into booze & drugs did anyone else ever feel this way? i dont know why a child would feel that way so early my brother also had mental problems very early i have an appt with t coming up & im going to ask him my brother also ended up in drugs starting at 13. my mom dad grandparents didnt drink or anything my mom & dad just divorced when i was a baby i played with some girls until 3rd grade but then just started feelin like i didnt measure up & so i became a tomboy until 13 then i didnt know where i fit. had a few friends thru school that were girls but i wasnt comfortable in my own skin i just wanted to be in with popular girls at school dont get me wrong im thankful 4 friends i had but just always hated myself later when the two girls i ran with when we got older i felt like a third wheel & got in with a bad crowd.

[Perna]

It was a new, different, "softer" state/experience, chemical in nature; everyone likes it. We have chemicals in our body affecting our experience all the time; think of orgasm; "you" didn't do that. Think of how you feel when you first lay down in bed after a hard day of work or play (look at a child who comes in from chasing fireflies on a summer evening and wears him/herself out, look at a puppy); babies feel the same way suckling, pooping, etc. It is a good feeling all on its own, not related to whether or not you are a child or not, know how to define "stress" properly. Growth is stressful; think about all the new things you were confronted with as a child, something simple like your first day of school, never mind your first test

[trixielou]

Leed i didnt get drunk til i was 14 at a baseball game i thought that was young lol i didnt stop though for ten years lost youth but cant go back to the past thankfully i quit cuz doc said if i didnt he would have cirrhosis by 35 theres a guy i went to school with who is just couple of years older than me & hes dying of cirrhosis & still drinkin i assume he is havent seen him in his garage since last summer

[kikki27]

Originally Posted by trixielou

when i was just a small child i noticed if i took a cold medicine that mellowed me i loved the feeling i mean early childhood what is that? im now 36 & have been thru the ringer but why so early did i love the feeling of relaxing medications? i want answers

It was relaxing and with that calmness it felt good too be mellowed I guess not an expert but cold medicines and diphenhydramine makes me mellow cause I have chronic panic attacks .Maybe you was anxious at the time when you took it.Huggs

[Sounierre]

I am a veteran DXM user and my best guess is that the medicine had diphenhydramine in it. A small amount of it can mellow you out and give you a light buzz. Even if you didn't overdose on it, some people are very reactive to it.

Google "diphenhydramine erowid" if you want more info on it. It won't let me post links until I have 10 posts or greater.

[OneRiffTooMany]

getting wasted was a sport for me thru school i was definatley a victim of peer pressure and undoutably peer pressured others
maybe it could be the availability side, spose some folks could have everything medical locked away and strictly monitor any dosages of any drug, on the other hand some folks could pass out drunk and leave plenty of temptations for a young innocent experimentor

[Amoslass]

er......I LOVED my medicines when I was a kid! LOVED them! Too much. I got caught sneaking the candy covered antibiotics I'd been prescribed once. Well, they really shouldn't make kids medicines taste so good!

Besides that, I was a little drunkard. I used to sneak sips of wine from the cask in the kitchen from the age of about 6. And because my parents are artists we went to billions of exhibition openings and there is always wine, so I'd go and mix wine into my soft drink or juice. I used to do it for all the bored little kids at the exhibitions. My peak of wine drinking crime was around the age of 10. It made me feel nice and warm and sleepy.

No wonder I went on to have a problem with painkillers.

[madisgram]

perhaps you have an addictive personality.

[Amoslass]

Perhaps my parents should have taken more notice of me. I mean really, artists aren't the most attentive parents, lovely as they were.

[Melbadaze]

Originally Posted by trixielou

when i was just a small child i noticed if i took a cold medicine that mellowed me i loved the feeling i mean early childhood what is that? im now 36 & have been thru the ringer but why so early did i love the feeling of relaxing medications? i want answers

From as early as I remember I craved beer, I use to beg my dad to leave me a dreg of his. I use to hang around outside pubs just smelling the beer. I did become an alcoholic, and did become addicted to pain medication, had a need to just swallow pills, fantized about pills and wonder if that was because the only time I had my adoptive mothers attention was when I was ill and she gave me a pill, perhaps in my head I equated pills as taking care of myself. I'm not sure why the obsession with beer from a very young age, lots of reasons for that, birth mother an alcoholic so proberbly that set me up or perhaps I associated drinking with company and I always felt so lonely? But I dont think we will ever know exactly, I just know now that pills and booze are no good for me and stay away.

[trixielou]

i can remember watchin the show Dallas with my mom in the eighties & when someone on there took a drink & they made that sound afterwards like they had just swallowed pure moonshine it just freakin fascinated me. i was born in 1974 so during those years even in the early part of Dallas when i was really young i was still fascinated well now i can say there wasnt much i didnt drink during my alky years including some stout homemade moonshine & i know why they made that noise after a shot of whatever. my alcohol tolerance was soo high so soon my dad told me his dad was an alky who would hit his mom & run the kids out of the house in the dead of winter. huh kind of like the scene in forest gump when it shows their childhood & the dad wakes up from his stupor runnin thru the cornfield with a bottle lookin for his girls. i didnt grow up around any of it but i guess where i was in a lonely private mental hell as a kid i got drunk at a ballgame when i was 14 that was it & i didnt burn the candle at both ends i threw it in the fire for many years. things just still haunt me actually after that incident at 14 i had one beer the summer i was 15 but actually 16 is when everything went to crap thats all i cared or thought about was the bottle & of course the cocaine & crack when i got into that & then later after a 5 year period of sobriety i relapsed & it set off some full blown manic behavior i didnt have earlier ended up in a cemetary with an alky man one day & long story short i ended up in handcuffs on the side of the main road cuz i fought the cops so hard like a wild animal i sat there with all the local traffic goin by lookin while they figured out what to do with me i was filthy skinny as a rail & just so beaten down by it all i was so angry that day cuz i didnt wanna be found just wanted to drink myself to death all they did was take me in a state police car to an overnite dryin out place & write me a ticket for public intox when what i really needed was taken to a place where they couldve helped me long term on the way down i talked to the cop who was nice & he ended up tearin the ticket up a few weeks later when i was sober & met up with him like he said he would do if i didnt drink & i was straight. geez this is just a small event from one day out of many years why didnt someone help me as a child maybe if i hadnt gone thru all of that i wouldnt know how big & loving & sustaining & forgiving a God i serve now i see middle school kids into all this & even if u try & tell them they just see me as someone who is 36 & not cool Lord if we only had all of it on film they mite decide its not so cute after all