Losing track of time

I keep losing track of time now that I'm trying my best to stay sober...is this normal? Plus the insomnia is getting worse and the aches are killing me. My mind keeps racing about getting a buzz, from anything, and I mean literally anything. It's so stupid and I hate it.

I'm so tired. I hurt. And my mind won't shut up. So to anyone that loves the buzz..............................don't over-do it. I haven't been sober this long in over 5 years. It's really messing with me how bad it's hurting. I didn't think I was this terribly addicted, I thought I had some control when really the drugs were controlling me. I was begging for more last night, almost about to cry. I feel terrible that he has to see me like this...and realize that he's dating a total screw up.

You deffinately need a hug! i too felt that way about not wanting my loved one to see me yelling screaming, crying pain, sweaty, throwing up and so on from trying to kick it. him seeing how weak i was ashamed

it's so hard, unimaginable, you get into the "worthlessness" stage and need to be careful and not give in when you get there.

and yes trying to find anything to get a buzz i have been there so many times, the things i can come up with to get me in a different frame of mind (shaking head) lol oh man makes me laugh.

your not alone! and i'm not just saying that oh i know how you feel i have been there i'm saying that in i know how you feel i am there.

life happens , and then you finally sit down and look and say W.T.F. did i manage to get all the way here...is this where i am!

take as many hot baths as you can and put epsom salty in there ......magnesium will help eleviate the muscle aches and the hot water will make you feel so much better.

Get some valerian root tea or capsules i take the tea....it smells horrid but tastes good...add some honey. this will help you sleep, it's in the same family as valium is. but natural and safer.
drink coconut water or some type of gatorade for the electrolyte....for potassium coconut water and molases has the most potassium in it.

i don't know what all you are trying to kick, different things help different withdrawls but it's a start
and hit up the dark chocolate

i'm here if ya need to talk