Bama?

How are you doing? I see you've posted lately but you didn't really mention how you're coping... hope that you're doing well.

Love,
LMo

I'm doing much better, LMo. Thank you for asking... I'm still struggling with loneliness and still having small withdrawals, but that comes with getting clean and dropping all the bad that came with your addiction. I've been clean one week yesterday (sunday) and the extreme withdrawals have passed for the most part. Still having sweats when I go to bed and getting shakey when a situation arises that I usually cope with by using, but I'm doing better. Layed in bed for almost two full days the day after I first started getting clean. Locked myself in my room and wouldn't allow myself to answer any calls or make any calls. Would only leave my room to go to the restroom, take a shower, and try to eat. My withdrawals were far worse this time around than the last time, but I've made it through.

I want to thank each and every one of you guys/girls who kept me in your thoughts/prayers and gave me such wise advice during my time of struggle and need. Even though I was making excuses as to why I wouldn't get clean and pretty much did the opposite of what was advised to me, I did let it sink in and I did think about everything y'all said to me. If it weren't for y'alls support, I probably wouldn't have made it even a week without using. Y'all have helped me a great deal and I'm forever grateful to you all.

way to go Bama! I am proud of you!

This is just the beginning... The mental withdrawals are pretty bad as well. About as equal to the physical, it just lasts longer. Having to learn to redirect my thought process because I know the cravings are all in my mind and if I can redirect my thoughts and hold myself back for a few minutes, the cravings will pass and I won't use. It's hard, though.