[splitimage]

Not proud of this. I just got totally overwhelmed with fear, and instead of picking up the phone and talking about it, I went back to my old coping mechanism and drank pretty much steadily through Wed. afternoon. Stopped briefly Wed. and Thurs., Then started drinking again Fri. night, and Sat. Didn't drink Sun. And I think I'm over it. I have talked to my sponsor and a few other people in AA and they've all been supportive. Going to my group at Branson today and a meeting tonight.

I'm just lucky I didn't die or have something bad happen. Didn't hurt me (beyond what I put myself through emotionally and physically) and didn't hurt anybody else.

So now it's starting over again.

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[missbelle]

Nothing wrong with starting over again....."Today is the first day of the rest of your life."
Thanks for sharing....

Honesty, open-mindedness, willingness.

Good for you for being honest

[madisgram]

so sorry this occured split image but remember today is a new day. you have the desire to be sober. using positive coping skills wards off picking up again.(know u know this) use your relapse prevention info. more than one behavior set this in motion, iho. i hope this info may reinforce your resolve. it helped me once.

Warning Signs of an Alcohol or Drug Relapse
Relapse is so common in the alcohol and drug recovery process that it is estimated more than 90 percent of those trying to remain abstinent have at least one relapse before they achieve lasting sobriety. But a relapse, sometimes called a "slip," doesn't begin when you pick up a drink or a drug. It is a slow process that begins long before you actually use.
The steps to a relapse are actually changes in attitudes, feelings and behaviors that gradually lead to the final step, picking up a drink or a drug. and more.....

http://alcoholism.about.com/od/relap...apse_signs.htm

[needfixing]

we all have our bad days, BUT the difference is you realized it, and now your moving forward. GOOD FOR YOU!

[notz]

I read somewhere: "Even when you fall on your face, you're still moving forward"

I remain in your corner SplitImage.

[Tosspot]

Thanks for sharing
Welcome back to sobriety, I'm so happy for you and then nothing too terrible happened while you were out.
((hugs))

[Sabrina]

((((Splitimage))))

[gma45]

I am proud of you it takes a great person to admit they made a mistake. Don't beat yourself up over it. Learn-Live-Laugh!(((((((((splitimage))))))))))

[likewater]

It's a really good sign you are telling people and going to a meeting. My friend always tells me a bend in the road doesnt have to be an end of the road unless you fail to make the turn.

[Caretaker Leo]

I am so glad you posted this! I went to my very first AA meeting on Sunday and relapsed on Monday.

What would anyone/everyone think about having a "Daily Check-In" thread? Maybe it could help all of us. And I would love it if madisgram would start it.

[Neurontin]

Im glad you made it back and able to see Step 1..."WE ADMITTED"....WE move on to Step 2 "HOPE"....because we see or I see that I couldnt handle this anymore. Life is hard enough for me to start using those old ways that... very frankly use to work for me. Today I know from experience that it feels better clean and sober than to slip back into my old ways...As you said a coping mechanism....Congrats.... you made it back friend. Very few come back...Give yourself credit...The path is what counts...Their will be bumps along the way but seems like you have a sponsor a home group....Your in the process of recovery....Be Well One Day At A Time....and welcome to Leo...Peter

[Willcat]

I glad your back on track with recovery.