[Justbyou]

I am what most would call a binge user I believe. I don’t use consistently for months or years. I tend to use a weekend here and there. Or been known to use for a week, but that’s the most at a time. I have had more than a year clean in the last eight years.

I know I’m not alone with my addiction, but feel like I am. I’ve never met another binge user. Or anyone addicted to ecstasy. That has been my drug of choice the last eight years. I crave that night life that is associated with it and the acceptance I feel by others. I don’t feel that sober.

I recently used again and have beat myself up because I was doing so well. It’s hard to pick myself up. I now wonder if I’ll ever feel that way again.

It’s a fight..a struggle to get through this. Is there any one else out there that can relate to what I’m going through?

[madisgram]

i've heard others speak of loving the ambiance that goes with drinking or drug use. in AA it's suggested we stay away from ppl, places and things we associate with our use. it causes a temptation that can be irresistible and sets off our using.
a drug is a drug-alcohol being the granddaddy of them all. ecstacy is very addictive and can be dangerous to use. it's like playing russian roulette.
binge drinking is more common than you're aware of. binging eventually becomes more regulary abusing on more and more days.
i'd suggest u go regularly to NA or AA. it sounds as tho you know u have a problem. you will find support there to assist you in your desire to stop this way of "life" and find a more rewarding life.
i'm glad u posted and i wish you well.

[Leed]

I agree with Madisgram. Binging is pretty common, with Alcohol being the MOST common of them all. So many people binge-drink and think they don't have a problem because they don't drink "all the time."

Like Madisgram said, I'd advise you try a support group. Since you had a year clean already, you KNOW how good you can feel! By using, you're setting yourself up for a very HARD fall. And I'm sure you know that drugs are lethal.

Please get some support so you can STAY clean. I don't like to sugar-coat, so I'm gonna say that I don't want you to be a statistic -- I don't want you to DIE and if you keep using, you will. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee

[davenoz]

Hi, i used to use a lot of Ecstasy and binge drink all through the weekends, I also felt some sense of loss when the Euphoria of the ecstasy had gone. I felt empty and as if all the love had gone from my life. Ecstacy made everything simple while I was high and put me in a frame of mind that I can only describe as being like heaven or bliss. Trouble is ecstacy floods your brain with feel good chemicals as your neurotransmitters start firing overtime. The downside of that is when the ecstacy leaves your systems it can actually cause deficiencies and make you depressed, especially if you have other problems in your life. Having feelings of depression will make you feel hopeless and empty and add to your excessive use because you simply dont want to come back to reality. Even binge drinking excessively over a few days can lead to physical dependance, which means you will eventually have to rattle after your binge was is incredibly dangerous (I have done this many times) or keep drinking to keep your symptoms at bay, resulting in full blown alcoholism. I have used drugs for years and they are dangerous. I would recomend speaking to your doctor if you are feeling depressed and have a break from the binging. If you are binging even though you say you wont, it is causing you problems and against your better judgment you just cant say no, then you have a substance abuse problem my friend and I would advise speaking to a substance abuse practitioner to address the reasons why you are using and to help you get a handle on it. I hope you get sorted. Take care